There are holes in my brain and I shovel words to bury
that emptiness I look for laughter that's not my own I search my hometown graveyard the spaces of your affection I'm flipping through the oldest books ******* in the autumn air; I cannot find the thing I lost There are holes in my brain but I kept you, Heart, perhaps a different way of craving wholeness
I chore by woozy by smoking everything in sight
I chore by medicating and letting the sides affect me crying at roadkill by owning taking up space not taking care I burden by poetry by reading you poetry talking too fast remembering too little by walking alone unsafe I chore by panicking at white trucks and appetite suppressants I didn’t ask for crying (always) at eight years at five years at 24 months at the always that keeps shrinking away from me Now I chore astoundingly by decluttering by choring myself cleaning and painting and feeling alive alive alive! Though touching is not a burden to you. Groping is not a burden. No-chore kissing and hands on my *** whenever and too much to be frank give me my boundaries my no's But you should know I am not a burden a task to complete dead weight snag hitch knot Loving me is not a chore. I wrote in a poem once that you didn't understand about a no one that you saw as yourself. I felt your beating heart then and knew you now it's true I can't touch you but it's no matter.
bash bang boom crash my mental stability fell down the stairs
A poem every day
S S P T O U O C L K N I
A poem every day.
War - New York
War - New York After the war, I went back to New York. Studies, Law. Practice Law. B M I L Alexander Hamilton began to C How to account for his rise to the Top? Man, the man is... Non-Stop Are you aware that we're making History.? (history has it's eyes on us) Why N do N O you O N assume N - you're - S the S T smartest T O in O P the P room? (where it happened) Why do you write like you're running out of time? Write day and night like you're running out of time? Ev'ry day you fight, like you're running out of time. Non-stop I practiced law, I practically perfected it I was chosen for the C o n s t i t u t i o n a l c o n v e n t i o n Alexander? Aaron burr, sir. It's the middle of the night. Can we confer, sir? Is this a legal matter? Yes, and it's important to me. What do you need? Burr, you're a better lawyer than me. Okay. Burr, we studied and we fought and we killed For the notion of a nation we now get to build For once in your life, take a stand with pride I don't understand how you stand to the side w a i t f o r i t Sailing > London. Write A n g e l i c a The fact that you're alive is a miracle, Just stay alive, that would be e n o u g h. 25-5-29-51 How do you write like tomorrow won't arrive? How do you write like you need it to survive? How do you write ev'ry second you're alive? Treasury or State I have to leave Alexander... Look around, Look around H e l p l e s s He will never be statisfied That would be e n o u g h History has it's eyes on you I AM NOT THROWING AWAY MY SHOT So what did I miss?
Have you read this?
C-c-c- c'mon C-c-c- c'mon Go Go I just want to survive (It's from Japan...) Take The Bus Or Walk Instead I feel my stomach filling up with d r e a d I wish I had the skill To just be fine And cool And C h i l l I don't wanna be a HERO I follow my own r u l e s Have my own t o o l s I just wanna survive Dangerous. Navigate. Halls. ~Christine~ Christine C h r i s t i n e Micheal? It's a sign up sheet for getting called GAY ~[-=*^} At least it's ...progress C'mon More than Survive
I was just tryna get to my lo-
Begging your pardon? Die You're all gonna Die You're all gonna Die The whole being dead thing... You're doomed E n j o y the sining And if I hear your C e l l p h o n e ringing I'll **** you m y s e l f The whole ~"Being dead"~ thing. G Brutal truth, I Hitlist, A Christmas, N Triscuits, T Statistics. SNAKE Every show I do like a TON of c o k e Jesus, pass the d r a m a m i m e Bla Bla Bible Jesus MA GI *C Seriously though, this is a (show?) about DEATH And on a certain date, the universe kills you. That's the thing with life No-one makes it out alive God I hope you're ready for a (Show?) about Death. I do this ******* like eight times a week, You're gonna be fine. God I hope you're ready for a (show?) about DEATH
Don't end yourself, Defend yourself
Love Life doesn't discriminate Between the Sinners~ and the ~Saints It takes and it takes and it takes And we keep loving living a n y w a y s we Laugh and we cry Rise and we fall And we break And we make our mistakes. And If there's a reason I'm still alive, when everyone who loves me has died, then I'm willing to wait for it. wait for it wait for it wait for it Mom, Dad, Grandpa. When they died, they left no instructions, just a legacy to protect. (What is a legacy?) Hamilton's pace is relentless, But some day he'll be tired. And the only thing the world will hear, Is a gunshot being fired. ... wait..! ...
If I waited just a bit longer, I'd seen the world was wide enough, for both Hamilton and me.
'What if this bullet is my legacy? If I throw away my shot, is this how you remember me? The world is wide enough, For our love to be. Just you and me. Rise up. We can fight the world together. Time's up. At least I spent this forever with you. Wise up. You taught me what love was. Eyes up. As long as I can stare into your eyes, I will lock my eyes every time. What if this love is the only thing left? What if these words were our legacy? What is a legacy? Sometimes I catch a glimpse of the other side. You let me make a difference. We'll tell our story, And we won't need to hide. Un Deux Trois Quatre Cinq Six Sept Huit Neuf I'll see you on the other side, Mon amour.
If you know, then you know.
We both know what we know.
Your eyes hold skies,
And there is no limit. You look back at me, And I know, I'm Helpless I want to drown in your voice, When you tell me I'm yours I'll fight every war in the world for you, If you let me look into those intelligent eyes I'll write you a letter every day, Because every day, I get a little more Helpless ~
Then you walked in and my heart went BOOM.