I tried to give you warmth, to ease your darkened soul, 
your vicious thoughts prevailed, and I could not persuade 
I tried to ease your pain, but you had given up,                                          
all that remained was searing anger cast forth to destroy all love.    
I saw you standing on the edge,
ready to forget,  
willing to move on,
you took that one last step,   
creating crevices between us while I just held my breath,        
'please come back to me my love, this is not over yet'
but you were far too gone, a distant memory   
remember you chose to stay behind
I tried to take you with me.

Fast forward to
a few years later and
you'll suddenly hear
he's getting married.

The emotions you've been
suppressing in
your almost-hollow chest
will all resurface
and you will want
to do something you know
you should've done before.

But you won't do it.
You will cry it out, instead.
He might invite you.
And you will take that
perfect opportunity
to flee.

Just like what you have done
rewind to a few years before
and have been doing
since.

I always wonder
if you were lying to me
when you said that
your house burned down.

I always wonder
if you really meant it
when you said that
you loved me.

I always wonder
why I am still thinking
about you
because
you ruined my life.

I always wonder
if you knew that
you robbed me.

I always wonder
if you really understood
how ******* up
our relationship was.

I always wonder
if you knew
that your words
hurt me.

I always wonder
if you knew
how much pain you inflicted on me.

I always wonder
if you understood
that I couldn't leave you
alone.

I always wonder
if you realized
that you forced me
to stay.

I always wonder
if you ever really understood
you,
me,
us,
at all?