Congrats, you were born as the rarest personality type in the world.
But was it worth it?

As a child you seemed fairly normal
Maybe a bit of an outcast
As you got older you began noticing the differences
You liked stuff other kids didn't..?
Maybe it's just a coincidece.

You're a teenager now.
The differences are visible.
You seem normal around your friends, if you have any
But when you get home, you shut down.
People can be overwhelming sometimes, can't they?

But over time, your existence itself begins to get harder
The uncomfortable pain
The lack of energy
Others have it worse tho, right?

You hate yourself,
You want to die,
But you live out of pure spite.
To make a point.

You no longer engage in stuff
You just observe
As you slowly turn into nothingness.

Streams of colours and scents
Flow in the crevasses of my mind.
I talk in sensations,
For I experience this world
Like a newborn that’s come to life,
Except my coming has occurred
Over two decades ago.
And so I feel a bit of an alien,
Having to twist and calibrate
What comes out of my mouth,
Lest I be left hanging
On the other side of the wall,
With my thoughts and my words
Unintelligible to most…
I’ve heard someone say
That those like me better be
Careful not to talk their minds,
For they might be thought fools.
I do not care to be a fool.
I’ve got to try relentlessly
To make myself clear,
So that I may at last find
One who’d understand me,
One that is near,
One that is not dead -
One that is real.

What is Real Love?
Love is unconditional. Is unexpected.. its understands. Its supportive. Its reliable. Its honest. Its giving. Its deep. Its powerful. Its a satisfying. Its dramatic. Its long- suffering .Its passionate. Its humble. Its attraction. Its desirable. It's unstoppable. Its intense. It's motivating.its sacrificing. It's discerning. Its diverse. It evolves. Its secure.  It multiplies, divides adds and sometimes it even subtract but who says you cant get it back.. It's loyal. It's obedient.

It's strong. It's bold. It's informative. It's helpful. It's caring. It's sharing.It's fair. It's Justice. Its a rhythm. It's a melody. It's respectable. It's forgiving. It's provides. It's self sacrificing. It moves. It feeds. It seeks. It needs. It satisfies. It doesn't lie. It never hides.
It's ensuring. It's healing. It's encouraging. It's righteous. It's good. It's deliciousness. It's sweet. Its satisfying. It's beautiful. It's submissive. Its Peaceful. Its giving.Its salvation. It's inspiring. Its joyfully.. It's tender. It's merciful. It's trusting. It blossom and also blooms. It Ticks and Tocks and It twist and it turns. It believes.

It discover's. Its kind.  Its  reasonable. Its Instructive. It pays attention. Its admiring. Its creative. Its nurturing. Its Determined. It protects and defense. Its honorable. Its promising. Its balance. Its adorable. Its Adaptable. It bears all things. It's soothing. Its relaxing. Its mildness.Its comforting.It's enduring.  Its healing. It's rejuvenating. It disciplines but only in a righteous way. It uses self control. Love makes everything feel right.  It makes your heart rejoice. Its Pure. Its happiness.  Its priceless

There is many levels to love.

Love in a imperfect world, you get confused with what the word really means !.. Love takes hard work to make it continue. So
Treating everything with love and love we never leave you. Because love never fails!

it was not a slamming
but a steady slow
easing closed
the door

quick catch of breath -
not as much as
a deeply drunk
savored gasp

like after a race
hands on thighs bent
******* in air
too quick

until remembered
to take is slow
and pull in that first deep
balmy breath

to take it slow speaks
of patience and of time
less filled with doubt
or regret

take comfort then
I took my time to measure out
feel the weight in my hand
of waiting

of giving you time to
slow down turn around
and see that the door
was closing

I waited there threshold shrinking
pleading silent looks for you
to stop before it shut
and died

but eyes are not accustomed
to look for or perceive
the colors of pain painted
in another

or to catch the dying glimmer
through the cracks of a heart breaking
as it eases closed
the door