#endyatremesepoetry poems

Endya Tremese Jan 2016

If you loved me
You wouldn't have found someone so fast
If you cared about me
You would've wanted to text back fast
If you thought I was perfect
No matter how blind, you would've seen that I'm worth it
So I'm sorry if my trust is gone
I'm sorry that my mind is wrong
I'm sorry that my heart is crushed
And I wear my insecurities inside out
Showing how damaged I really am now
I'll never be the same as I was before
I trusted you to open every door
You took me so ******* high
But I swear when I felt the floor
I shattered into a million pieces
Watching you with someone, teasing
Me, laughing off in my face
And I couldn't keep up the pace
So I used the only chance I got
To run from that ******* place
I gave myself up
When I seen opportunity
So I'm sorry that you let me know
There would never be a you and me

#endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Jan 2016

Fear

Have you ever been so scared that someone would break your heart
that you just wish that they'd go and do it already
so you can run far away with no forgiveness
...
assuming that the actual heartbreak
would be less painful than
the fear of it happening.
Cuz this fear ******* hurts like hell.

Everything negative starts with fear.

#fear #endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Jan 2016

LIFE IS TOO SHORT

I remember saying I hated the word sorry
But now days all I do is look for an apology

I keep telling my self to forgive and forget but wanting them to show their guilt and regret

And if they did, we could build and respect

Instead of showing the subject

This type of neglect....

Like that **** ain't hurt me?

The way I reacted in every situation showed how it burned me

You gotta test me out if you really finna learn me

It takes more than what you think you know to distinguish or discern me

These moments in life, we got less than a few

So why's it heavy on my mind? Maybe cuz it's not to you

You dont want to wait till its too late to up and dead a feud

Cuz tomorrow that person really could be up and dead to you

Don't waste away your life with hate in your heart. Mend every broken friendship and relationship possible. Life is too short.

#love #life #endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Jan 2016

My Final Decision

Pull it, pull it, just ******* do it.
Because if not now, you'll ******* lose it.
As I sit..with my knees to my chest,
I slide the gun up my thigh to my breast, and then up from my throat to my chin,
my heart beats..I can't help but listen,
and I put it in my mouth,
wishing for energy to shout,
but I take a breath
and then I take it out,
glide it across my cheek,
and up to my temple.
Call me a freak.
Call me mental.
Just end it all, right here, right now.
And listen close 'cause this will be your last sound.
Just ******* do it, this life ain't worth livin,
So let's get to it, call it My Final Decision.
I close my eyes and my face tightens,
Sorry to who will find me, I didn't mean to frighten.
Just ******* do it.
I pull the trigger
Get some chalk and draw my beautiful figure.

Another one of my lost poems from my old account. ♡

#suicide #depression #anxiety #endyatremesepoetry #lostpoem #lostpoet

Endya Tremese Dec 2015

Fate is Fair

Fate is a *****
But she gets the job done
You gotta race through hell
When your heart is on the run

I had this girl hit me up
And say we had something in common
So I asked her wassup
And then my mind started wandering

When I realized that our love life
Was in the same hole
But talking to her faithfully
Made those feelings feel old

I started questioning myself
Thinking I had a new crush
But what I didn't realize
Was what had made me feel the rush

Just as simple as a text in AM
Had me sayin
That I should think about how heavy
These options were I was weighing

Being up all night texting
Had my mind and heart debating
When it was only relating
That made me see my feelings fading

Till one night this girl
Had done something amazing
She helped me get out that hole
And there my ex was, waiting

Apparently when I wasn't looking
They had had a conversation
That opened my exes eyes
To see the mistakes that we were making

As soon as I got out that hole
I seen all the similarities
It was the fact that she cared, listened
And gave me carefully-worded clarity

So I looked in my exes eyes
And seen she's the half I was missing
And now I'm happy to say
We're again making memories to remanaice on

But I look at that hole
And my friend is still there
And I want to get her out
But that's not my heart to repair

So I sit next to this hole telling her
Her ex still cares
Cuz I know what it feels like
To believe that something is still there

Cuz Love is kind, Karma's a *****
These are feelings we can't bear
Just remember Life is pain,
But Fate is is still fair

#love #life #fate #karma #endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Dec 2015

Checkers

If you make a move...
You're left with nothing.

If you don't make a move...
You're left with nothing.

So in the end,
You'll have more than you ever had before.

Found some old poems that were on my previous Hello Poetry account. Made me really happy.

#endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Dec 2015

Taking Back my Taking You Back

If I asked you to take the train down
Would you even visit me?
If I told you I missed the taste of your lips
Would you start kissing me?
Would you make my heartbeats pace race while you caress my face so tenderly
While I stare in your eyes just in case you really do remember me.

If I asked you if you love me
Would you still keep me guessing
Cuz if you sending mixed signals
I'm not going ever get the message
If I gave you my broken heart, would you handle it being reckless
Would inviting you back in be something you'd be regretting?

Nevermind, I gave my heart out once and even then I should've kept it

#endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Dec 2015

Exposure

I won't expose your body
I won't expose your temple
But I'll do even worse
And I'll expose your mental

Tell them how we used to be
And tell them how you used me
Tell them how you let go
And never was afraid to lose me

I got a lot of hate built
But I wont expose your pics
And yea you played me like an instrument
But I won't expose those chicks

Cry a ******* fake river
Filled with words that contradict
And acid in every word
That your mouth could possibly spit

I think you believe your own lies
I think you like this lil disguise
Cuz I swear when I look at you
I look the devil in his eyes

I knew you liked to play with fire
And I really hate to admit
That now I know what you meant
When you said one match had our hearts lit

#endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Dec 2015

Reality Into A Dream

Out of all things, this is playing it safe
Out of all people, shes the one you'd take
And with all the circumstances and situations and places that our relationship persuaded us to fulfill ******* breaks in us,...

thinking that it was mean to be, feeling a little ecstasy, ****** us up so mentally, but this is what you call "careully"?

I hope what God has in store for us is good. And if I could forget you right now then I would. But I understood every word you said, I just wish it would get off repeat in my head.

This ain't playing it safe

Even with all the **** ups, I thought that our relationship was strong enough to make anything work. But we will see what will happen. Have fun with her. Please dont fall in love with her...or anyone.

#endyatremesepoetry

Endya Tremese Dec 2015

*****

We spat in each others faces
Running the longest races
And jumping over obstacles
Barefoot on burning rocks and hills

Trying to find whats missing
And wishing that i was kissing
Those lips that had me slittin
My wrist and using my fist

To punch these walls that closed up on me
While i let you get closer up on me
To hold me and not let go of me
Saying, proving and showing me

Energies walk around us
We hid from them but they found us
Tore us apart to pound us
As we yelled but heard no sound but

Will you really make love to me
Say that theres none above me
And try to seriously trust me
Take it out on me lustily

Be my forever and always
Hold my hand like we did in hallways
I know you're tired of this phase
Lets get back or be better than our old ways

Just writing

#endyatremesepoetry