Dear Daddy

i missed the way you would swoop me up off the floor
and I remember when I begged you to stay just a little more

You would cradle me in your arms
And tell me that I was your precious little girl

I remember we would dance and whirl around
And I was the twinkle in your eye

I remember every night with you
And I knew you had no clue
But every time you said I love you
I would hold it close to my chest

I remember how I believed that  you where the best
I was your princess
And you where the king

I remember how you’d sing
And I’d gently fall asleep
And every time you left
I sit on the floor
By the door
And weep
But dear daddy
I should have reminded myself that your love was not mine to keep.

You always tell me that I can talk to you about anything
but how can I,
when everytime I try
you shut me down
and tell me to wait until i'm older
or you get mad & hang up the phone
because I don't say what you wanna hear.
I'm tired of your childish and selfish ways...
but yet i'm still here

It is funny how when I say daddy
a smile often spreads forth on my lips
it may be because of the ‘dy’ at the end of daddy
or because I loved you so much

Smiling always reminds me
of how many times yours beckoned to me
you lit up the room with your jokes
and turned a house into a home

Home is no longer home without you
you have been gone too long now
you should be a memory to us now
but you remain the backbone of what you left

You held us close with your loving arms
simplicity was your best suit
yet love was your weakness
for you granted it to us without restraint

The simplicity in our home
is now lost to an empty place
a place you once filled in our hearts
dear daddy.