I'm not sure why I always set myself up.
Handing over my love, like it's an overflowing cup.
I don't know how I still find a way to trust,
thinking this time will be better and giving in to lust.
I wish I was whole, not broken and just glued together.
I want to believe it when someone finally promises forever.
I don't want another lesson, another passing ship.
I wanted your love, that's only part of it.
I wanted quiet evenings in each other's arms,
I wanted lazy weekends- snoozing our alarms.
I wanted understanding and a knowing touch.
I wanted a lover who didn't think I was too much.
I wanted sleepless nights, messing up the sheets.
I wanted new adventures, strolling through the streets.
I wanted hands who could hold tightly on to my own,
I wanted a heart that was not afraid to be shown.
I wanted virtual voyages in our favorite games.
I wanted shared memes, that's us, and silly names.
I wanted more memories scorched into my heart.
I wanted a lifetime, not to be so suddenly torn apart.
I wanted the dreams and hopes we co-created.
I wanted to believe this meeting was fated.
I wanted to give you all of me- my heart, body, and soul.
I wanted reciprocity, no need to ask or pay a heavy toll.
But did you ever want the same?
You once told me you did.
Was this just a game?
Why did you open me up and throw away the lid?
I miss your hand in mine.
Your skin on my skin.
The way your dark coffee eyes shine.
Your voice, a melody, I was always sinking in.
You once asked me how to win my heart.
You held it in your hands, the moment I felt our first spark.
I can't say you made me weak, for you actually made me strong.
I was losing myself before we met, but I was saved by our song.
So suddenly, you were lost, I didn't know what to do.
In the end all I really wanted was you. </3
