Years ago we sat there in the church.. talking away. You were the only one that got me. The only one that understood my life. You are my old friend. Best friend. Brother. Bub, I miss you so much! I can't wait 9 years. I can't wait till I am 23. I would do anything for you. When I have the money I will call you! When I am 18 I will come see you! There is no one on earth that could hold me back from seeing and talking to you. My parents don't like the fact your in my life and they don't like you. But ***** it. ***** them. I am done and nothing can stop me now.

I find comfort in darkness
where i am most comfortable with myself
sitting in the dark
no windows open
everything starts to feel okay
nothing is there to get me
no one there to see me cry
just these four walls surrounding me
and they've become my best friends.