They say they understand
But they don't
Emotions built up inside me
Like an overflowing cup
Things falling out,
But
Things left inside

There were things in her line of fire
She would not touch
But I
I was not one of them
When she got to you
That was it
She'd chew you up
Swallow you
And then **** you out
So you could see her beautiful insides
And when you came out
You were never the same

I need to stop thinking
You can save me
I am so mad at myself
For thinking you could
For so **** long
I realize life isn't about being saved
Or saving another
Just love and maybe be loved in return
Because all I really need
Is someone to kiss my knuckles
After I create a hole in the wall

I don't dream about you
You always say
"I dreamt of you again"
And I can never say the same
Because you are never on my mind
And I am so sorry
She is always on my mind
You are just here
And she is not

You mean a ******* lot to me
And I want it all
Curse my ******* name under your breath
As you watch me take the elevator
Down a level
To the lobby
To pretend to leave
So you beg me to stay
But I need to learn you will never follow me down
To the lobby
Because you don't want to cause a scene
In front of other people

Slightly inhaling
This cigarette between my fingers
I hope this doesn't scare you away
I haven't even met you and I already
Am writing poetry about you
How pathetic huh
But I am sitting here
Staring at the bush directly across from me
I wonder if he ****** you today

Its as if there is a vice grip
On my heart
And every time you kiss me
It squeezes me harder and harder
I feel stuck and safe
You're constantly there
Around my heart
And you know the power you hold
You know I am
As needy as an infant
As a senile old woman
As a *******
I need you to constantly tell me
"I love you I love you"
So I know you won't leave me
And if you do
I can hold that against you
That you love me
And my constant needing pushes you away
And I am just sorry that I am like this

Line by line
I dissect you
Embrace your mind
Pick at your soul
Your dark past
Your changing present
Your beautiful flaws
Your regrets
I am trying to learn
Each crevice of your eye lid
Each stretch mark on your side
Every freckle and bump
And current bruise
And when I think I know it all
That's not possible
I'll never know enough about you