I just wanna say that,
I really tried hard, maybe even harder
To compose myself again
I did so many things to distract me from the pain
I thought that I am already okay
I didn't expect that you really have mastered ways on how to break me
Every move you make,
Every step you take
Every words you say
Just you're mere existence
*breaks me

Behind my lovely smile
my so called funny jokes
my innocent stare
another world lives in
a world only made of
fear and regrets
tears and guilt
it's a hell inside


don't disturb it
it will all turn on you

Do you ever think about me?
Or am I forgotten?

Trying to put me back together would be like:

Trying to do a million piece puzzle,
Without half of the pieces.

Trying to solve a  Rubik's cube,
While blindfolded,
With your feet,
With shoes on,
Under water,
Without an air supply.

Trying to put a broken plate back together,
When all of the pieces have turned to powder.

Trying to bring my body back to life,
After its been cremated,
And the ashes spread in the wind.

Trying to flip a "heads",
While rolling dice.

Trying to put me back together is useless.

You would have better luck:
Splitting an atom with your bare hands,
Stopping world hunger with a single pea,
Surviving in outer space without oxygen,
Running to Mars and back on foot.

I'm un-fixable ever since you took all of my love,
And left me for dead.