I'm tired
Tired of trying
Of being the nice girl
Of everyone calling me a sweetheart
Tired of always being the second choice
Of constantly having my life fall apart
Of having no one write me love poems
Tired of having nothing
Of never getting what I want
Of being so lonely
Of never getting what I deserve
Tired of feeling so **** sad
Of never getting the chance to be happy
Of thinking back to that knife
I'm so tired of being tired
I'm just tired of life



I don't wanna be tried
I thought you'd help me finally sleep
Now, my tiredness causes nightmares
And I've given up my chance at my dream

Throwing together my world.
Taking it back apart.
Keeping it hidden from everyone.

Throwing the world away.
Starting over again recreating it.
Recreating my whole life.

Freeing myself from within.
Freeing myself from my soul.
Changing my outlook on everything.

Changing my life for the best.
Changing my appearance and my thoughts.
Keeping my life open to anything new.

The madness
It's taking me over
Not being able to stop it

It scares me
I just want to.....
To what???
Lash out?
Fight back?

What is it?
Why can't I ignore it.
This feeling
Well...

It overcomes me.
It takes over my mind
Makes me go insane
I don't know how to control it

I do know how to suppress it
With writing
So much words to describe me
In such a little poem

Dredging up memories
The past comes back to haunt me

Feeling so badly insecure
I'm starting to lose my composure

Why me?
Why be so friendly?
I'm fearing my destiny...

This endless, painful cycle
Finding myself caught by every obstacle.

The truth hurts,
Lies are worse...
I must be cursed.

I'm unworthy of love
**Cause me, you didn't think of...

**** her
**** him
Watching every second of it

Waiting to see if she sees him
Waiting for her to notice
He's figured out what she's been doing

She looks away from the other man
She sees him
Starts to cry starts to fall apart
Feeling Like ****

She runs after him
Tries to get him to listen to her
He says nothing
Goodbye a silent reminder

Goodbye forever walking away
Silently
Silently walking out of her life forever...