I'm leaving today
But I'm not leaving for good
Space is the only thing I have to give
To show my love for you

For you
I would paint the trees purple
I would teach the birds to sing your name
I would make the rivers flow backwards
And make mountains curl and wave
I would set fire under ocean waters
And bring the fiercest animals to a calm still
Make lies of the things you once thought we true
Just to show you a new world

But my artistic devices have become depleted
And I'm left naked and ashamed
So I'll leave for this quest
For me to reclaim my own name

There's a color in my head, it wont leave me alone
As the peacock feathers, she's got no where to go
So I just smoked her down, left a funny taste in my mouth
No longer can I breathe in, I'll have to do without

This lung
And this heart
Is filled
With tar

He said he was your lover, with real debonair
Filled you up with warm words, that weren't really there
His hand was on yours, felt like a shackle
Frozen straight to the heart, he felt so cold

His heart
and his mouth
Were filled
With his own doubt

I swear to god I'm trying
But my lungs can barely move
Trying to breathe you in
But there isn't much space

Twenty nine times I said I loved you
Twenty nine times I said I cared
Twenty nine days I waited
Just for you to reappear

From the dark depths
That calls you home
An everlasting engulfment
That I could never know

Twenty nine dots
We counted everyone
Twenty nine reasons
You wish they were all gone

I wish I could have been your savior
I wish I could have been the one
That could show you beautiful mercy
From a life that has gone all wrong

Twenty nine day dreams
Of your beauty and love
And that you would come back
And hold me in your black-veined arms

Don't be so quiet
Please don't you hide
Twenty nine days of solitude
For both you and I

My day dreams turned nightmares
Of how you could be there
On the floor of your bedroom
Eyes glazed and mouth open

Twenty nine needles spoke vicious lies

If you complain than they'll just hold you back
If you go crazy than they'll just laugh
It's empathy that they lack
A normal need that holds you back
It's easy for them to call you selfish
If you wont bend to their will
They'll imprison you in pointless arguments
That gives them some kind of sick thrill
But you've got your future fixed
That no one can bend or break
A small metal ticket
That will rapture you from this place
So you'll forget this cruel
And you'll just slip away
Unwanted and unneeded
Just like it's always felt
You looked me into the eye and I just looked away
I didn't have the time or strength to save you from your pain
So you've made your agreements
That you are a disappointment
That you are worthless
And that you should just end it

But I love you
I love you

And they labeled you a *****
But I can see a whole lot more
I can see your broken heart
Every time you open up your arms
He just wanted some cheap fun
But you needed someone
To come and save the day
And make everything seem okay
This is the only place you can go
'Cause this is all that you know
Suicidal Cyclone
Media influenced drone

But I love you
I love you

And you think you're clinically depressed
But I think you're romantically suppressed
You don't have to get undressed to impress me

https://spencercarlson.bandcamp.com/track/no-name

I used to be myself, I used to be complete
But people thought I was trying to hard to be something
So I changed myself into what I'd thought they'd want
Now I live my life pretending I belong

I have searched high and low for some kind of validation
But all I ever found are people with more expectations
So I will love with all I can
And hope that some day I'll finally feel like a man

I don't want to waste your time for you to figure out who I am
And I don't want you to waste mine just to leave me for who I am
My head might be my home but I am willing to leave
And if you show that you want it I'll give you the key

The only thing I learned in this world is to shut my filthy mouth
'Cause no one really cares about what comes out
I'm done trying just to be heard
So that I will have to rely on little birds

https://spencercarlson.bandcamp.com/track/little-birds

Everyday is like an earthquake in my head
Just another reminder that I'm not dead
And everyday I see you is the day I wish I stayed at home
And every time I run away is the time I see my weakness
'Cause it's so much easier to burn down these bridges

Sorry for walking out on you
Sorry for walking out on you
'Cause you promised you would never do it to me

And I'm tired of trying to forget about every girl that doesn't like me
'Cause the weight of my bitterness is tearing a bigger hole in my heart
And pain is strong and it too moves on until it gets what it wants
That no one can tell that this empty shell once held a person

Sorry for walking out on you
Sorry for walking out on you
'Cause you promised you would never do it to me
Sorry for walking out on you
Sorry for walking out on you
'Cause you promised you would never do it to me

And I've been trying to make this life work all on my own
I push myself so hard and yet feel so alone
I've been moving forward chasing every love that I see
Until I realize true love has been behind me the whole time

Sorry for walking out on you
Sorry for walking out on you
'Cause you promised you would never do it to me
Sorry for walking out on you
Sorry for walking out on you
'Cause you promised you would never do it to me

https://spencercarlson.bandcamp.com/track/amberson

My best friend has met the love of his life
And I'm still trying to figure out mine
I got three friends and a hundred acquaintances
And this feeling my life will never change

Walking around town with my iPod
I look in every girls eyes hoping they'll see mine
I listen to their pain hoping they'll take mine
And it's in there stories I find

That we are waiting to be rescued
Every last person waiting for time to reverse
We are waiting to be rescued
And it'll only stop for us when our hearts finally burst

All my love ends in the bedroom
'Cause that's the only place it ever was
It's fun but I'd rather have
A relationship instead of a heart full of regret

I listen to her story and begin to think
That her pain and sorrow sounds familiar
I wonder how can she complete my life
When she's just as broken as me
Oh yeah, only a human being

My arms feel so empty
My arms feel so empty
My arms feel so empty
But my heart is full
And I can see that you're alone
So I'll wait, until I can rescue you

https://spencercarlson.bandcamp.com/track/until-i-rescue-you