i hope everything is okay
i still worry about you
i engraved you in my heart
you're still one of my first thoughts in the morning
i want to be normal friends
i miss the conversation
how's your girlfriend
i hope you're happy with her
how's the family
i hope they're well too
i hate how awkward we are now
anyways
i hope you're doing well
i am i promise

s.s

i. when you're no longer excited to see them and the butterflies don't make an appearance, instead you feel empty

ii. when their flaws are no longer perfect, they're just that; flaws 

iii. when a future with them is no longer in your plans, it's just a silly thought you laugh at, something long gone

iv. when you no longer dream of them, but they might creep into your nightmares

v. when the space with them no longer feels comfortable, it feels like secrets are hiding, waiting to fall out

s.s

i am over you

head over heals
or over your existence

depends

s.s

don't forget me
p l e a s e

s.s

come
make me forget you

just
you
and
i
step close
look me in the eyes

see the fire in them?
it still burns your name
prepare to put it out

lean in
close
just close enough
to get my heart racing
and whisper
"i don't love you anymore"
like it's nothing
matter of fact
mundane
because that's all it is
right?

s.s

love is patient?
love is kind?
love is the most beautiful load of ******* i've ever encountered
and it is only kind
until it is gone
then my dear
love is haunting

s.s

i don't know what i'm feeling

nothing makes sense
it all contradicts

one day you miss me
one day you forget me
one day i can't stand you
one day i just crave you

you can't even make up your mind
how am i supposed to make up mine

i hate you
i adore you
i want none of you
i want more of you

why the **** do i still love you
why the **** can't i let go of you

s.s