I'm so scared
not because I have never been through it
there are more knives in my back than I can count
my heart is in such small pieces I don't know how to put it back together anymore

I'm scared because I think I might actually like you
I'm scared because I've heard what happens when you really like someone
and its never good

please don't break my heart

We stayed up late
and talked for hours
We spoke words we had never uttered before
let thoughts escape our lips before we could think twice

We talked about those who had hurt us
and those we were afraid might
and how we had hurt ourselves

When we spoke of escaping i said
"I always liked the idea of jumping"
But he had a better plan
"I would take a knife a cut open my heart"
When I asked why he said
"I like the symbolism"

I forgot what this feeling was like
I had kept myself distant for so long
I don't know how you did it

You broke down barriers I didn't even know I had
You made me feel happy again

We may not be prefect but I think I might love you

I skipped the slow part
I fell in love with you all at once

It wasn't his sparkling blue eyes
It wasn't his smile that lit up my day
It wasn't his shoulders that I cried on
It wasn't his strong hands that held on to mine

It was never any of these things
It was always his heart

From the moment I saw it I fell in love

I remember what it felt like the first time we touched
our fingertips brushing against one another
in that type of way where it was meant to seem like an accident
but we both knew it wasn't
My whole body filled with warmth and pure bliss
just at the touch of your hand
but then something changed
As i watched the fountain spray water in every direction
all i wanted was to jump in
to extinguish the burning
that your hand caused on my skin

I knew a boy, who was beautiful in every way
But never felt that way
He always offered to take the smaller half
Not because he wanted less
but because he knew he wasn't good enough
to have more