**** they all talk about love without knowing a dime of it
love for me is the love, which made you feel loved
irresistible - steamy  and dreamy
oh Jesus teach em love not the definition of love
this is the month April, the month of Sun, to whoever near the equator -
and this man who writes all these
lavish  with the exuberance of love which may only the lonely writers
may understand
bring me the love - the love that I understands
Sun- that would be my only new year wish
happy new year !!!

I remembered how this all made me feel
this all keep questioning the purpose of my existence
where that I go mute with no proper answer
I may replace the "I" with "He"
so  whoever read take all this in the third-party narrative
but in deep down, I know this everything is about me
every word and every touch of the meaning is always only about me
saying that, I don't wanna give up
not that am dumb to see this whatever it called the bigger realty
but just like I am entrapped to mundane of routine, am entrapped to the illusion of life
the illusion which promising to fix my broken reality yet keep me making more miserable by every single minute it passes
now it is just passing the midnight
half of the wold maybe dreaming whereas the rest of the half is working on their dream
okay world, I surrender
I don't understand, even though it seems that I do understand more than you all
I wish if am stupid as you all if I am born with the ignorance as you all
He whoever responsible for making this life is just a sick *******
well it is a random something, it is the worst random ****
maybe there is no meaning to anything but isn't there a meaning
why I am here today
writing all these, which then converted to some digital bits
stored in some magnetic range
am the verdict, this is my confession
dear whoever put me on this, I am paying for your sin
it is poor innocent me bearing the cross, crucified for your eternal sins
I remember how this all made me feel tonight
it was the shittest ever felt
dear all spiritual *******, I love you all but tell me one thing
why the ******* all do have to do business with everything you preach
tell me how you are better than drug dealers
I will not remember how you all made me tonight
please, please and please
keep me out of all your business
I wish you all will burn in hell alive to witness the pain
you all have given on me
don't ever utter, just a single word
I will always remember what do you all made me feel tonight

It  was a word from heaven
so it makes sense, sometimes
that you look up above your head
kneels down and pray for your God,
He may extend the "love"
if the prayers get heard

Hello..

Hi..

Not you, the witch
I need a hug.        
came a long way.
tired.

From?

She knows, she does

She is not here

never mind
' be outside
that bench there
in cold

Till she comes?

.

I wanted to eat -
the carrots you juiced
                                    at night
for the breakfast

I got nothing to do about been real
So
I drink up for the night to fill the rest
The love is such insanity what I make me loving about me being insane
Right now am there the edge of having and not having everything at the same time
But my heart always in need
So am pretty sad but in the most beautiful way
Am the lonely drinker to the night
Without a cigarette between ma lips

So you are a witch?
I love hunting then, am in need of no luck
am not trying - just hunting
as the fire lit into the darkness infinite
may the witch glow to be an angle
even though the witch isn't sure about

the darkness is blunt and cut open the infinite
but am in love with this taboo of life
days and nights are no longer inspirational
now the heart counting on  eternal darkness
and the rapture of her witchcrafts

she is writing her spells in a few cozy lines
attached to the pictures of the light
so much of beautiful love mask upon the darkness
the passion is such so no more weeds go high

I only love the moon and born to make love
there are flames which never go cold
yes I am a wolf - one look sharp through the darkness
a one counting the words of her spell she cast
Thus there can not be things in between ...

{to be continue ...}