I was with my boyfriend today.
When i started crying randomly he got confused and tried to comfort me..
But he couldn't
Cause i can'ttell him what's wrong..
He'd just be dissappointed that i feel worse again and that i lost 3 kg in a week.

I can't dissappoint him like that..

I only make promises
To myself,
To ensure
I dissappoint
No one else.

If you haunt me
haunt me
haunt me
only because you
want me
Please don't
dissappoint me
I can't take that
anymore
Something tells me
I'm already gone
anyway

only if i didnt

listen to space song on repeat
pour that liquid right in
smoke my 'last' cig
reach for heaven's gate

stay in bed a little longer
cancel all my plans
dissappoint everyone around
hurt myself

but i did.