chitown musical
no words stop no words stop my
elevated train

He called me on the phone
It rang and sang his name
The fire emoji blazing.

He wanna talk
Out boppin' around
I bet he's got on his dancin' shoes
Jewels on his fingers, he always got words
Oozing and spilling out of those gorgeous lips
Like diamonds aflame
All of Chicago cooing his name
I just coo the softest.

And thats whats different
Thats whats special
He throws gems and emeralds with phrases
How he goes about his days, his ways
A multitude of love so expressed
He motions for me to join in on the party
Wants to make me comfortable
Not change me, and I listen
I listen
Its one of my best traits.

Southern Belle
Never thought I'd end up here
I sigh so deeply sometimes
Cuz I just thought this would all be so much *******
Easier.
Just about all my lovers got their person
Forevers echoing and demanding them to stay
In one solid place
And I'm listening on the phone
To the polyamory talk
And there ain't nothing wrong with it
But how did I end up here?

Gotta kick up your shoes to stay with it
In the wide big city of Chitown
And I don't want nobody right now
Like that
But my God, my God
He got his lips formulating words into meaningful sentences
I tell him I've just heard some of it before
As he acknowledges it with grace
I just
I just
I just
I just
I'm so ******* ready to go fly and run around a ******* forest.

Room mate got upset when I said I couldn't wait for all this to be over
She doesn't get it
She took it to the heart
But I've been sweating and doing this for a long time
You don't know what its like to always be the conductor
And I wouldn't trade it for anything
But my God
Today, I just wished
I just wished
That I had the comfort of knowing
Feeling
That...that one person
Had my back
And only my back.

"I want to be in something where we chose each other."
And you don't swat away ideas about the future
But I can't sign my time or heart away if theres no hope
As I brushed my teeth in the mirror
We are all reinventing
And it makes me wonder if some folk meant for some things
Others aren't
And I know I got it goin' on
But at the end of the day
The work
The work is what gets me through.

But where are you?
And will you just want me?
Will I just want you?
Room mate said today Lost Boy is so eaten up
Because he wanted me to The One so badly
And I can't seem to get anyone
To just stand still with me
That I wanna stand still with.


I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know.

I give up
There are no princes.
Only princesses
And the lucky men who get to show up.

(But my God. Find me. Or choose me.)

My favorite thing to do
Is to make you laugh with a giddy candor
On the crowded red line train
So early, so early
In the morning
Golden new sun
Light.

And then I'm hustling past
The other hustlers of the town
Got that manic Monday on thick
Like the sunscreen I applied
In the midst of my first summer
In the Chitown sun
But there was nothin'
Sweet nothin'
To protect me from
The first come
First soft serve.

Antics fill our coffee mugs
I've been so busy my love
I know you got that rock steady
Been humming the tune
That melody of constantly got company
I wondered yesterday
Around noon
If I'd lost touch
With my sweet lagoon of
Embracing solitude.

Waiting for the blue line
Let's have a grand two days
I'm luck I'm such a lucky *****
The whistle blows
As the rest of the world
Ponders
I ponder
How do we
Counter with nothing
But light?

My angels know their demons
My demons know their twins
Which ones will is stronger?
Which ones will will wins?
Took a boat from Stockholm
Sang for Swedes and Finns
The Dark Knight always rises
After Batman he Begins

                     Chicago!

Hey guess what
In this moment
At 3am
In the Chitown city light
In your pale pink dress
That cuts your body just right
Skin showing and gliding
Just believe for a moment
In a plethora of ways
That you're the ****.

Not the spider
The Spider-Man

Can we do it?
Yes we can!

Disability
Keeps me outta work
But I need to be more practical
Find my glasses and keys

I thank God for my dad
I am a taxi service
I live a double life
Please, baby, please

Krishna sings with gopi girls
I write a few professors
Am I the Postcard poet?
The wind is in the trees

Exoplanets spin
Webb telescope
Both despair and hope
Hope is a disease

          Father Greeley!

The good, the bad, the ugly
I told her truly the truth
2 women from my past
2 women from my youth

Time slips by
Death crawls close
Awake in the night
Heath Ledger Overdose

               ChiTown!

I've been up since around 5
Day 3, back in that Chitown summit
Mama and Papa
We dunno
We dunno
We dunno
Figure it out
Figure it out
Figure it out.

Its Thursday
Summer is here
And I think its here to stay.

I drift in and out
Into the newness
The relief
Of releasing the exhaustion
And I see photos of you now
Honey Bear
And you look so tired
So old.

I suspect I'm different too
We snap, snap, click, click
Free of the critique
At long last.
I'm sorry I made you think
That was a necessity.

I sat on black leather
But I consume only vegetables
Beans
And I drank down my whiskey
Laughing lightly, or hard
My name from someone else's lips
But I keep it casual
Casual.

Time to go back out into the sun
Been up since the early hours
"Kick *** launching your app today babe."
I typed it, so swift
Time to go
Time to go
With wings she glides through time and space
My card read last night
In a circle of women.

You came into my home at 6am
I heard you peek inside my door
I put my keys back under the rock today
You wouldn't be taking them
No you wouldn't be taking them.

I've had to ask for my keys back before
It is often a painful display.
I didn't have to do that this time
Because this is casual
This is little fine.

You held me for a bit
I stretched out onto you
Until we had to disconnect
My dreams full of confusion
Desire
A piece of lingerie and long kisses
I wanted to find you and get back to you
My sweetness outstretched
Willing to bounce the ball you throw at me
Right back into your chest.

We made love quickly and I got sweaty so fast
The summertime making us all want to mate
I think of how cold this winter was
How little loving there was to be had
Before I knew you
Before you knew me.

Men in my age group
I do believe they have no desire to commit
In this big ole city
I dub Chitown
I long to be like them
An unafraid bachelor
As women cannot help but long for more
And we often have that spun around
Put right in our face.

We waited for the bus
It was warm and soft
With our paddles high above our heads
We sought who could hit each other
The fastest
The quickest
It was you who did it in.

I went into silence
I could feel your immediate regret
Sometimes I think you just speak
To just speak
And I wish you would fill it
With meaning instead.

We rode on the bus
I couldn't think of much else
Your eyes and face so emotional
My green outlined with red
My eyelashes reaching long
I could see an edge of pain
But I'm not sure where it stemmed from
I blew it all off
What else is there to do
But chalk it up
While simultaneously confessing the truth.

I had a large day
I paid for the crew meal
I started a shot list
Thought deeply about cameras, locations
Sauntered around with a grounded directness
I wish
Well
It doesn't really matter what I wish.

You said at the beginning
That you weren't looking for love
Though your contentment and ease
It speaks the most volumes
I'll be taking a couple seats now
About 5 to 9
And I think of those numbers visually
All up in my mind.

I told you I liked you during ***
You used it as ammo which I think you now regret
But we realized we both like and need meaning
I'll be here
Taking my seats
Living out fully
And expecting nothing.