Body shaking
Heart racing
Mind scattered
Feeling dizzy
Need help
Can't talk
Go away
Can't walk
Pass out
Why not cry a little too

Hello my name is anxiety

A boyfriend and a goal
The fuel to my eating disorder.
Just 5 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Just 4 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Just 3 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Only a salad for dinner
Just 2 pounds.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Only a salad for dinner
I'll go for a run
Just 1 pound.
No dessert tonight
Half a sandwich for lunch
Only a salad for dinner
I'll go for a run
No breakfast tomorrow
Just **5 more pounds...

Be happy;
It's Christmas
you're blessed
but you're crushed.

The angels sing
but really scream
and fires rage
where candles gleam

It's ******* Christmas
so be happy
give in to lies
you know are sappy

If you don't
I guess it's your loss
***** to be you,
alone on Christmas.

When you know you're making
a big mistake
but you voluntarily make it
anyway

You know you're either
in love or
an idiot and you pray they aren't
the same

Don't speak
Turn out the lights
If you see nothing,
you can say nothing.

Don't think
Turn off your mind
and free your inhibition
to submit to the condition

In your eyes
I was a mistake
no intention to keep
yet still you take
disregard my life
for your own sake
swore not to lie
but still were fake

Break the synapse
that forces a relapse
into the abyss
of my existential crisis

You look but don't see,
so please indulge me
with metacognitive debate
fueling cynicism and hate