Maybe I care too much
or maybe it's the lack of medication
But my mind is overflowing
with constant consternation

When you disappear on me
it's like my heart has gone rogue;
A vast cavern left inside my chest
no tears left to disembogue

But my feelings are very present
A tangled mess of fear and panic
as well as a deep love and longing
everything so fresh and very organic

That's what we have
and that's what we are

unknown
afraid
and passionate
All very chaotic

But one hundred percent real

Where did you go my love?
Please don't keep me waiting long...

Moments come and moments pass
Everything acting in a fluid motion
Swirling and foggy
Nothing is clear
The world, my mind, my body

What's real and what's fake
Fake news and fake currency
How can I escape
The world, my mind, my body

Bursting but trapped by the last thread
A cloud of illusion leaks in
I breathe it out, I breathe it in
Somebody please come save me
From...
The world, my mind, my body

nothing causes greater inner termoil
then a friend who pushes our truth further into us
when we finally have the courage to share

The game of Life acts as a diary;
a replica of our Momentous actions in part
With my mental issues, trust issues, and tramas
I started 20 spaces behind the start

Generations below me pass me by rapidly
conquring the board without a care
I crawl one space forward completely winded
the game of Life isn't fair

I must keep my eyes, my head, and my hopes down
For if I squint to see the end on the horizon
It's not only far away
but potentially just an illusion