All experience is preceded by mind,
Led by mind,
Made by mind.
Speak or act with a corrupted mind,
And suffering follows
As the wagon wheel follows the hoof of the ox.

All experience is preceded by mind,
Led by mind,
Made by mind.
Speak or act with a peaceful mind,
And happiness follows
Like a never-departing shadow.

This feeling comes bubbling from the center of my soul.
It's warm and embracing and makes the cold feel like home.
I'm not walking on sunshine, it's emitting from inside me.

A cold breeze blows through my home,
A sneeze erupts from in my dome,
I can feel a winter cold,
Taking over me,

Just because **** is sterile
Don't mean that it's drinkable

The sun has shined today for the first time in weeks.
The bird song today doesn't seem to lull me to sleep.
The grass is starting to pucker it's lips
and the trees are stretching their limbs.
Flowers open to breathe fresh air,
The scent of spring is everywhere.
I feel renewed by this springtime hues,
Out with you, old wintertime blues.

I miss you,
Let's forget about everything
And let me wrap you up in
The warmest kiss we've shared together
I think I'd cry, a little.
I think you'd cry a little.
We'd be saying so much without a word being uttered.
I miss those moments.
Those blips on the radar of history
Where nothing mattered except
Your lips and how they tasted like sweetwater
and *** appeal.

I don't remember where I was going with this anymore
I get to thinking about you and suddenly
I'm L
           O
        S
              T
Again.

That awkward moment
When your pistol looks
Pretty ******* friendly

Darkness surrounds you,
the sounds are now mute
A faded image of once was,
a collage scars and blood

You all are detastable,
I remain unphasable,
Mentally unstable,
I live above the labels
You place, on each other
you're filed into the wallets
Of the man that runs your bank account

It's 3 pm, I was sleeping still
Wondering what the hell is inside of them sleepin pills
First things first, walk to my bar, grab a glass, and get it filled.
Whiskey is the juice of sensations,
I,
Sit cross legged during meditation
Contemplating the fate of a dying nation
In my basement, my body, the temple, distasteful
Falling apart like the homes of the Haitians.
I'm faded.
Trying to get straight answers from my family but they're all wasted
Drinking together us the culmination of our communication.
They say they wish I'd just ****** die.
Fine. I'd rather hear a crooked truth than a linear lie
**** em.

Your smile is the light of the sun,
Beam brightly

Everything ends,
eventually
But I want to focus on a more important thing
New beginnings
Like the color of spring after a long winter
Breathing new life into all living things
Beginning marks change,
Beginning marks the end of the chapter before
The next unfurling in a swirl of letters and emotions
I like beginnings, and change,
Beginnings and change mean new challenges in my life
New mountains to climb
No roads to drive
I can open up my mind,
And see that beauty that's inside,
Of me

I'd melt you down,
And inject you in my veins

Forever in love with
Ideas,
And surreal, seemingly impossible dreams.

Today, my greatest love left me
She uttered simple words
That sent my complicated world
Crashing through space

She said she needed space
But how am I supposed to give you space
When my only thoughts are of your face
And the memories we made within this place
Between these wretched walls I live within

I hear your laugh on the wind
And I catch your name
Sizzling on my tongue like hot grease
And when I call it out to the night
It's only the echoes that return my cries
And I'm reminded of the bitterness of being alone

I gave up my time,
I gave up my peace of mind
I treated you right
And everybody will testify
That I did

It's your loss babe
You won't find anybody better
When you come back, I'll be here
Observing the distant weather

Out of all the dust, and floating debris,
How did gravity, draw you to me?
Were our atoms made, in the same star?
Is that why I feel you, no matter how far?

It's that force, that binds us together
forever and ever, no matter the weather
We'll stand together, through it all
When the sun rises and the ocean falls
And when the tide comes to wash away
All the things we'd never say
And the names in the sand, in which we made
Encircled by a finger-painted heart,
Two people, not even God could keep apart

I just blame it on the gravity.

Sometimes I want to bleed,
To feel the red running down my flesh
Sometimes I want to bleed,
Because I already feel dead

Sometimes I want to bleed
Let the razor sing her sharpened symphony
Sometimes I want to bleed,
To feel my last breath leaving me

Sometimes I want to bleed,
So I force myself to carve
Sometimes I want to bleed,
My brain Oxygen starved

Sometimes I want to bleed
And feel my life slip away
Sometimes I want to bleed,
Take me to a better place

Today, I bleed for you...

I want to write a poem,
But there's not much to write about
It's four in the morning,
My eyes droop heavily as I type,
I'm exhausted, and worn out
But that's on my own account,
stay up all night, sleep all day,
A teenagers sleep cycle,
I always fight to stay awake,
But it's a battle I rarely win

This is a poem written,
Well under the influence,
Of a man made chemical
But it makes me feel good
The walls continue to breathe
Breathe..
in, and out, inhale, exhale
The energy in my lungs,
Could move a thousand mountains
The energy of my being
Could move a thousand universes

I'm standing in the ashes,
Of the bridges in between us

Foul and morose is the mind of this soul.
How badly I want to tear my flesh from my bones.
Reach inside and form my heart into an iron lump.
Grab my brain and tear it down it's symmetrical half-line.
I long to eat bullets and wash it down with Clorox.
Why must I feel like this?
All I can think about is how metallic my own blood would taste.
Of how pretty the scarlet would look
On the backdrop of this living room.
One day, I'll find the courage.

I think of honor, and pride
And the clashing of swords
The Heart that beats inside
Master my weapon, an art form

I will protect my land and master,
At the cost of my own life
Arrows and katanas only come faster,
And I'll slip in to the light
The code I've lived by, do or die,
A samurai

I'm tired of writing about love,
I'm tired of writing about trust
Looking to the skies above,
Thinking about the memories of,
You and I,
Love is patient, love is blind
But why do I need, love,
When I can open my minds eye
And see a world never seen before
Envision a world of peace and no war
A world rid of the reasons our children are crying for
a world in which everyone is valued
Instead of thrown, like trash, to the floor

I'm tired of writing about change,
I'm tired of writing about space
Maybe instead of words on a screen
I can make these visions a reality
We can make the change, one person at a time
Curing the sick, healing the blind
When we all can work together,
We can achieve a global peace of mind

Change doesn't just happen,
It's caused by an event
Most often, catastrophic
But it doesn't leave a dent,
On the minds of those it didn't affect
We have ideals and values we want to protect
But we leave our kindness at war's doorstep

Though I may fall down,
My spirit will stand strong
Though I may be starving,
You should eat my bread

She was dressed in the sins that matched mine,
She exuded imperfections as she walked
and her eyes bore the scars
Of seeing through a screen
In a life spent a life spent half-mad

She made me feel okay to be flawed
I no longer looked in the mirror
And felt like I was chewing on the glass
Swallowing whole the shattered shards
To hemorrhage what was left of my self-esteem

Yet, now that she's gone away..
I'm tearing at my skin again
Abrasing my blemishes,
My specks, and my spots
Re-opening old scars
Astonished by imaginary disfigurements.

Now I sit here, look in the mirror,
Blood is running down to the sink,
I'm chewing on glass again.

Dear Cheyenne
I love you more than I could ever express
You make me feel like a million bucks,
When I felt like 2 million less
You brought me up from my darkest hour,
Your lips make my mouth taste sweet
When it was once sour
I want to take you to the top
Of the Eifel Tower
And kiss you again
So you feel the power
Of the change you wrought in me

I want to wrap my arms around you
And never ever let go
I don't know what force could've allowed you
To love someone, so broken, so alone,
but you still did

You took the pieces of my shattered heart
And sewed them back together
You're a masterpiece of modern art,
That I can appreciate forever
And you push me to be my best,
In all of my endeavors
My greatest treasure

In ten days, it will have been 9 months
Since you stole my soul away
And kept it in your safe harbor
I know that I'm no charmer,
But,
I hope you think this is cute
And you hang it on your wall
Just like all the others
So I figured, if you had some wall space,
I'd write you another
My dearest Lover. <3

Words you say,
Have a tendency to reach under my skin,
Like an infected I.V I cant pull out
Phrases and insults burning on your tongue
Shoot sparks and burn those that don't deserve
The treatment you're giving them

You can't hide your true colors anymore
I truly know your heart is black
And you live in a colorless world
While mine remains
Full of hues
And views of places
Far away

My life was a black and grey scene,
Until you slipped on the ice and ran right into me
That day was the first of many,
Where you colored my world
So many things passed under my nose, unseen,
Because I hadn't had you to open my eyes,
To the color that is life,
A koleidoscope of vivid emotions and hues only came,
The day you slipped on the ice, and ran right into me

I forgive you,
For all you've done
Come back, baby...

Coming of age,
A bitter taste
No longer a boy,
Becoming a man
Father, I know you're ashamed,
but I'm doing the best I can

I'm a walking contradiction.
Most of the time, my heart is filled with joy.
I want to give unto others as they have given unto me.
I want to do good deeds and let my presence exude peaceful air.
Yet, I find it so easy to engross myself in hateful thoughts.
I feel malice run deeply in my veins.
It scorches my insides and leaves permanent burn scars that can't be undone.
I'm always going against the grain.
I get the urge to stomp on the flowers I just stopped to smell.
It's a difficult feeling to put into words.
Trying to hard to be good, then, out of reflex lashing out at nothing.

In the space between
The words we leave unsaid
I trace a thousand constellations
And the brightest stars
That line your pupil
Illuminate the darkness in my heart
And I focus on the gravity
That draws me closer to you
And the most beautiful part
Is I will gladly let myself
Fall into you

I think that the moon
Reached down and
Placed his finger
To your cornia
and that's why I find
Myself
Swimming in Lunar blessings
When we dance

And I think that
The Sun
Plunged his hand inside your chest
And lit the fire in your heart
That I fell in love with
And I feel the heat
Of his
Influence
As I place this ring upon your finger

I dream in black and grey drawings.
Like a flip book of subliminal messages.
Every mark a memory
Underneath eraser stains
Your outline is still visible
I've only got one canvas
So I'll have to make beautiful things
Around your shadow
Like I'd never made you into art at all

I want to hear your voice,
I want you to be mine
I've got only one choice,
The waiver has been signed

I'll tell you how I feel,
When I build up the strength
But I'm afraid,
My world will come crashing down
Around me

Kinda craving drugs,
Kinda craving ***,
Kinda craving food,
Just kinda craving.

I really like the way your hair waves in crimson hues.
The way you hold your cigarettes is as light and airy as your voice.
Watching you sing your favorite songs, makes them my favorite too.
What am I gonna do, if I keep falling for you?
I've got a crush on you.

My head is full of pretty women and stiff drinks

*******,
You're not anything I intended
You to be

What a waste of flesh

The ego inside me is slowly but surely dying. Soon my eyes will awaken to their full, all knowing capacity. I will see the world exactly as it is, and that thought is comforting, yet terrifying. Being wise is a long, scary journey. But the light of wisdom outshines the darkness of ignorance. I will glow brightly, and illuminate this darkened space we live in and take for granted.

I'll mold this world in my hands,
Pick apart the pieces of evil
Crush them between my fingers
And blow them away
Like powdered glass
Into the eyes of my shadow.
Press it down with my thumb,
With God-like strength
Erupting from my fragile human form.

I am Vader,
Reminiscing as he delves into the dark

Stop. Breathe.
Feel the earth beneath you're feet
Stay intact, stop the fracture
Everywhere you look there's greener pastures
Have a moment of laughter,
Appealing to no master
In this current moment
You know nothing else could matter
Peace will come full circle like the rings of saturn
You can pull yourself together when you find yourself scattered
You're destiny is malleable, and only you can be it's crafter

When your tears fell,
I watched diamonds catch the light

I'd happily dig your grave,
If you'd fall in it

Whenever I peer into the rising sun,
I am reminded why suicide isn't an option.
Whatever feeling that comes will surely flee
Like the tide from the breaking shore.
When the rain comes, I'd rather jump in puddles
than spring for shelter.
I guess it's all about your disposition.

It's been a long time,
But once again,
I'm dopesick.

Send me down the river
And meet me at the end
I'll find your hand beneath this current
And pull you above the surface
So we can swim together
And I'll never let go
So we never drift away again

I got up this morning
And tasted the air
And it held a twinge of salt
And regrets I can do nothing about
It held a taste of
the bitterness
That comes after actions you wish you hadn't committed
And it made my mouth twist and contort
Into the only shape it feels comfortable in now,
As I mutter "I love you.."
I know you're not thinking of me

He's got a gentle heart,
But he's a fighter
Lost in lyrical art,
His words  strike her
He wants to find love,
But he thinks he may never find her

He's a dreamer,