I'm too drunk to write poetry
And I'm lost in my thoughts
and the noise
that are surrounding me

Alcohol is flowing
Everyone is having a good time
Me, included
But I still think of you
No matter how drunk I get
Even more so, I'd say

Come unto me,
Let me caress your soul
And bathe you in the
Clear waters of contentment
And we'll slip away
Into the mists of something
Wondrous

Something new,
Something fresh
Something greater than
The suffering of rebirth and death
Cycling through,
Never ending
But we've grown wise,
through holy lives
We're repenting
Unrelenting
In our drive to change
For the better,
For whatever the weather,
We're on this quest, together

This storm can't bring me down
I stand tall and proud
Against the binds of aggressive nature
We'll see who earns this Earthen crown

Rain keeps falling down
Down upon my head
Do you see this Earthen crown?
It was stolen from the dead

Long legs, black hair
Her eyes are blue, her skins fair
I can't help
But stare

Her face, divine
I feel her lips against mine,
Heart beat, flat line

And they say, she's classier than champagne,
Know I can't complain,
I'm addicted, like *******
On a cloudy Monday
Cause she said that she'd stay,
You know the best things in life come free to us,
Cause she,
moves underneath my hand,
Sweet and soft, like a pretty lamb
And she don't wanna go outside, tonight,
And I kiss her, because I can
She won't love any other man,
It's too cold outside,
for angels to fly
Angels to fly

stay in, wear sweats
Worries gone, there's no debts
Curl up, in bed

She talks, I don't
I try too, but the words won't
Come out, a sad note


And they say, she's classier than champagne,
Know I can't complain,
I'm addicted, like *******
On a cloudy Monday
Cause she said that she'd stay,
You know the best things in life come free to us,
Cause she,
moves underneath my hand,
Sweet and soft, like a pretty lamb
And she don't wanna go outside, tonight,
And I kiss her, because I can
She won't love any other man,
It's too cold outside,
for angels to fly
Angels to fly

She'll lay here tonight,
Closing her eyes,
Looking towards a happy life
She won't fade out tonight,
She'll wake up to light

And they say, she's classier than champagne,
Know I can't complain,
I'm addicted, like *******
On a cloudy Monday
Cause she said that she'd stay,
You know the best things in life come free to me,
Cause she,
moves underneath my hand,
Sweet and soft, like a pretty lamb
And she don't wanna go outside, tonight,
And I kiss her, because I can
She won't love any other man,
It's too cold outside,
for angels to fly
Angels to fly

I'm living in a paradox,
With rain clouds hanging over me
I'll lock my soul within a box,
Along with all my misery,
We just fell off, now all is lost
We couldn't live in synergy,
Simply left to shivering,
Because it's so **** cold without you.

Let's get an old bus
And go cross-country
Let's count all the broken yellow lines
And the drops of drugs to the eyes
That we take a long the way

We've got Electric Kool-Aid in the fridge
And we're ready to roll
Literally and metaphorically
I want to vibrate physically
As I do spiritually
I want to spread love and peace
And good times to everybody

Take a drink of magic juice
and share the experience with me
Altered consciousness
a state of chemical well-being
That puts me at ease
All the colors and sounds
colliding
In my head in fantastic images
Of sacred geometry
The Flower of Life blooms
In my dilated pupils
And I smile

I cant explain the change
The change in me
Once so happy and go lucky
Now downtrodden and smelling of melancholy

My heart beats for an empty purpose
My intentions growing darker
writhing like serpents
Speak from the heart, a sermon of empty words
I can't feel anything anymore
The deepest of cuts bleed but don't hurt

I'm looking through glass, through my own eyes
Through each day I lose more control of my life
I'm never going to win, so  why even try?
Empathy is demolished, my feelings run dry
I can't say I love myselfI can't say I love anyone else
I'll pull the bottle down from the shelf
And drink until I don't feel anything

Whack rappers don't **** with the best
Creep up in your house with a black backpack
And a TAC vest, plant two knives in your chest
Leave you bleeding and unconscious, like the rest
My bars explode like hand grenades
Words more bitter than no-sugar Kool-Aid
These listeners press play, and it's end game
No money you could pay could bring you this fame
By the end of this verse, nobody will know your name
Another little faceless wannabe
go back to rappin with the Aint-Never-gonna-Be's
This for a fact I know,
that when I see you next, you'll be ringing me up at Cotsco
Or you could try and contend with me
Have you hangin' in a musty room,
Getting beaten with a broken broom
I won't tell you what your future entails
Short of it involving lots of blood spatter and entrails
Wrap you in a blanket, blacker than a flag a pirate sails
Send your family severed fingers in the mail
Take forever and a day to find you
Desecrated and punctured with a thousand nails
Buckets of your blood, fillin' up a hundred pails
Cut you into pieces, fit you in a babies cradle
Serve your brains as an entree, get the ladle
As you can see, I'm eliminating the competition
If you wish you could keep up with me, ****...
Better keep wishin'.

I still feel you,
You're tattooed in my soul
I'd still bleed for you,
Pull me up from this hole

Your touch lies just beyond my fingers
I till walk the rooms, where your scent doth linger
Remnants of a time that's gone away
The wildflowers have withered at the doorstep of decay

The photographs are driving me insane
Tears catch in my throat as the frame,
Shatters,
Under my fist, the blood on my knuckles
Brings me laughter
You, the master crafter of my lifes biggest disaster
You were the love of my life,
Burned down to nothing but ashes to scatter
I still hold you in my dreams, but in deaths eyes my pain
Does not matter..

I'll be with you soon, and we can dance,
Out to the moon in a dead lovers wonderland
As this razor glides across my veins
I'll pass through those blackened gates
And hold you in eternal rain
I'm coming back love, today's the day
I feel the rain, disolve the pain,
The pain, the pain,
The pain has gone away

When I think of you,
I ******* own blood

Sinking, sinking,
Further down into nothingness,
I'll fade away,
Slowly

My eyes are fluttering
The letters mocking me as I type these
Words
And I feel my head
Crashing towards my desk
In 3, 2...

We live In an era,
Where our peers are our oppressors
And your judged as a person
By the contents of your dresser
We need to make a change now
Let's see if we can make it better
Walking through a school hall getting spat on
Cause you don't have the right jeans or ******* shirt on
These superficial glamor nazis don't know me
Looking down from there towers living on golden streets
Kids cry at night when they lay between the sheets
All they can think is "why? You don't even know me
All these kids obsessed with jays and they thread count
Looking at the outside and not what I'm about
It's sickening, they got a fashion addiction.
Living off of daddies money and mommies perscriptions
Yet they don't look in the mirror and see the cynical villain
That they turned out to be
Can't see the hypocrisy
And I'm honestly fed up
I grew up on cheap clothes but the best love
Maybe it's love those kids need a little more of

You're two different people,
Correction,
When you see you're reflection
You're divided into sections
Not seeing the big picture is a focal infection
Intraveneous intjection is the method
But that's not what the family knows,
They remember when your grandpa was stealing your nose
Running through the sprinkler with the ****** up hose
But now you're nothing, hoping you only mean something
To the man Who keeps your crutch coming,
Scratch all that, he's not a man, he is a coward
Lusting only for your money and his ****** up thought of power
He doesn't give a ****, he just knows you want caps and powder
He'd let you O.D on his **** and not even throw you in the shower
Give you white flour cause his milk just ran sour
And you still call back at all hours
I just really feel it for them dope fiends,
Trying something once, end up giving all your hopes and dreams
Blue green is the color of the eyes
Of the girl selling her body for her next fix,
Goes to work at night, has to **** like ten *****
And that **** gets real old with a quickness
Seeing no way out, she's found with slit wrists
The split fists of the one who's addicted
He feels so alone, he's beared by no witness
He said "**** this" and did it
His final thoughts were only "No one's gonna miss this..."

Smoke it, snort it, break it down,
Grind it, roll it up,
Inject it, snort some more
Smoke some more
You can always do
A little more
You know you want your heart to stop
As much as all the toxins
You dump in your body
You ******* fiend.  
                                     - Drugs

Today you told me
How much you love
Fireflies
And I had myself an idea

I'll capture a thousand fireflies
And put them in a thousand
Glass jars
And I'll hang them from the trees
And dance with you
Until morning comes
And the sun brightens up your face
Again and I can't help
But to smile.

Muttering, stuttering,
Lost in thought,
Steps are stumbling,
All signs
Of a heart
That's fluttering
With love

My soul flies from the top of a mountain,
I feel fully alive now,
Falling, falling, falling from the mountain,
My soul is well endowed,

The cold air rushes past
As I fall into a Novascocian lake
the water envelops me,
Fast,
Sinking down to the bottom,
Save me, for heavens sake..

Deliver me from evil, I know not sins I've wrought

I feel like I'll eventually be
Forgotten
Placed in the footnotes of histories *** crack
An insignificant blip on the radar of Earth
Fading away into the memories
Of a dead planet and a dying species

As my ancestors came before me,
So I shall be
Dead in the dirt, while the worms
Feed upon me,

I just wish I could be a hermit
Spend my days quietly meditating
Watching young trees grow tall
While the world forgets about me,
And I was it spiral into chaos
While I sit here,
Watching, and waiting,
Perfect equanimity
As the world falls around me
In small glass and steel pieces

But it's okay to be forgotten,
It means you never made any ripples
and if my life goes as I want it too,
I'll be pushed out of everyones head
Before I am even dead

And I want it that way

I swear, nothing will beat
When you bite my lips
And run your hands through my hair
Kissing me like my exhale is the last bit of air
That will ever enter your lungs
And when you kiss my neck,
I feel a shiver like an arctic breeze
I just can't help it,
You're so... foxy

Gimme a funky bassline
Slap that thing like it stole your money
Bring in the sax just right
Get on the floor and bring a honey
Cause we got

Music flowin'
******* blowin,
Everybodies vibin
With the love they're showin

Take your hats off to the band
and give them the respect to dance
When you hear that funky music
Cause It might be your last chance

So get up, down,
round and round
Make a noise complaint out of this town
So get up, down
round and round,
got kick drums by the pound,
So get up, down,
Round and round
Rock this place, to the ground!
Oh, let me give it to ya

Guitars soundin' real real clean,
Good God almighty, it's a party scene
I couldn't find this in my dreams
Let's rip this house down at the seams!

So get up, down,
round and round
Make a noise complaint out of this town
So get up, down
round and round,
got kick drums by the pound,
So get up, down,
Round and round
Rock this place, to the ground!
Oh, let me give it to ya

Sitting in my garden
I feel the life of these
Plants
These things
These living, breathing specamins
Of mother natures handy work
And I'm simply amazed

The sun calls to me in a sultry voice.
The horizon inviting me sweetly to explore it's territory.
There's gypsy blood boiling inside my veins
And I hear a message on the wind
That cannot go unanswered.

Overbearing sun,
Above the highest of clouds,
Illuminating

Why don't you adorn
Your crown of precious metals
With all of your lies?

Serenity found,
In a place of tall grasses,
Happily alive

All I want is to
Truely understand myself
Live in harmony

Know that I love you
More than any crashing wave
Loves the breaking shore.

Inhale all the pain,
Exhale a story of strength,
and poetic growth.

I want a headstone made for myself,
And I want to hang it in my home.
An ominous admonition that I am surely doomed to die someday,
Reminding me to fill my life with joy,
Before it's hanging over my head,
And not on my wall

Take this crumpled heart
It only beats in your hands
Hold it, forever

I'm sort of fine now since you left.
But I'll never be the same as I was.
When you left you took part of me with you.
My ability to trust.
My ability to vent.
My ability to see potential in someone.
Yeah, you took a hell of a lot from me.
But you'll never take my peace of mind.

I wish you could see
What I see
In you

We all cry the same whiny tune
While we look up to idolized teenage figures
Well guess what?
The real worlds tough, and Holden Caulfield was a spoiled brat

Hearing sharp words
Of those around me
Love is absent
Lust omnipresent
Out of sympathy
We become hollow beings

Sweet lies fill the ears
Only tasting of resentment
Under strain
Loveless we remain,
Simply self consumed

We became so material
Imperialistic
So agonizingly emotionless
Hollow souls cherish possessions

For possessions take the place of emotions
Only lavish fabrics or precious metals
Really fill the void in people anymore

Love, outweighs possessions
Outweighs them by a thousand
Vicariousness the victor,
Endlessly

I'm blinded by illusions
But blessed with sight
I feel the confusion
Late at night
And I don't remember where I go
I ask myself and I don't know
But I smell like blood and cologne
If only I had known
Last night would end up like this
With a fatal kiss and a knife
Creeping up to take your life
In the dead of night
Underneath a full moon
Hiding in your bedroom
I think I love you
Too soon?
No, I just love the violence
And the sadness that follows
Your post Mortem silence
And so prevalent is the eloquence
Of skin, pail benevolence
And my conscience tries to  bleed through
The only thing that bleeds is you,
I smother it, I cover it
In the blackest manifested sin
I am not a human being ,
I have become the devils kin

Today I feel very bland
I am that nasty tan color of the walls in school
I am that odor of stale cigarette smoke that fills your nostrils
I feel so plain I make chicken stock look extravagant
No drive or real motivation
Just moving through the paces
Like I figured out humanities hidden robotic algorithms

Someone please inspire me

I should practice what I preach,
I'm such a hypocrite

I am free
Free from the evil thoughts
That corrupted me
Free from the rain
That poured down and covered me
I am free

I am invisible, but also transparently see-through.
You could read me like a book if only you'd open the covers.
Intolerably difficult, but I'd always stand beside you.
Open my spine, read a line and shudder.

It's hard to feel like you're special
When everyone who told you that you were,
Leaves.

I deserve better than this.

I saw a woman today,
She was mysterious,
The Lavish red lipstick
accenting her
black-lined blue eyes
the air of perfume
Mystique,
Unknown to me the taste
Of breath,and lavender
I fall forward into her aura
This pale skinned beauty
Shook me to my bones
And her scarlet dress
sent the waft
Of affluence and European vacations
I'd never get to have
and it made me shiver

She raised a cigarette
With a gloved hand
to her lips and took a drag
This grace,
This angel of a sinner
Looked at me and cocked a perfect eyebrow
Peered round the rest of the party
and asked if I was going to keep staring
Or buy her a drink

I bought her a drink

I can't even write
Because my minds pre-occupied
Worrying about you
Your will to live
If the skin is split
Upon your wrist

when I wake, will you be there?
Or was the weight to much to bare?
You know I'd bare it all
For the beautiful girl who made me fall

So in love,
But I'm never enough,
To take that weight off your shoulder
You're going uphill carrying boulders
And I cant do anything but watch

With strained eyes,
As the love of my life
Is losing her mind
While I sit here and whine
Because I feel so ******* helpless

Why can't I save you?

You had me is what she said
All that's on my mind
Laying all alone, in my bed
Is when I wish you were mine

I want to feel your arms,
Wrapped tightly around my waist
I want to feel your heart
And talk until the break of day

I've lost my chance,
This I have come to accept
I know I've lost my chance,
To speak all the words we've left unsaid

I'm about due
For a smoke and a back rub

Misty eyes,
Aching soul,
I'm so young,
Yet feel old

Your voice is still soft
And the only pitch that can
Soothe my aching soul

she's out there, waiting for me,
Oh, it'll be such a sight to see
Her, with windblown hair
And emerald eyes,
I'm just a lonely poet, it isn't fair
That she will not be mine

I'll wander the globe,
Searching for the smile,
That will make the globe worth traveling
I'll cross the seven seas,
To find her on an unmarked island,
Awaiting the return of I,
the man she never met, but fell in love with,
Over and over and over again,

Her breath will smell of spring,
Her body will tempt the most solemn of Gods
She'll wander the street, flocks of men at her feet,
and she'll say
Nay, Ronnie is the man for me,
A certainty, this dream shall be
A dream, most certainly,
That plagues me every night,
always hurting me...