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Robyn Nov 2015
I can feel your kisses
Like an antidote
Fill my blood
And the oxygen in my lungs

Pushing the toxins out
Along with the pain
And poison
Your perfect balm
Your healing hand

I know I'm going to marry you
Robyn Feb 2013
Does she know that each letter pressed on the keyboard
Adds more weight to her chains?
He sees it all, he sees it all
She thinks it will stay hidden
I see it all, I see it all
She knows that it's forbidden
Go ahead
I could care less
But when the flowers are dead
Don't ask for help with that mess
Robyn Oct 2015
That little metal heaven
Where I felt you near me
That little metal heaven
Where I speak - no one can hear me
Robyn Nov 2012
It always rains here
Puddles form in the valleys of the cracked pavement
The flimsy gutters snap and stick out like broken fingers
Water flowing in choppy patterns
Slapping loudly against the slick ground
Water always falls where we walk
Our shoes are always wet
Raindrops break though the cold, thick fog that creeps down our throats
We always happen to forget our umbrellas
When it rains all day, I look at the grey blanket of a sky
And think its eyes must hurt terribly
Thanking God we brought our jackets
We converge in the 20 by 20
Linoleum floored room
Hidden away behind the mossy brick walls that catch the rain
We sit in places where the floor is less wet
Letting out hair dry and hands warm
Against the wheezing old heater
Which two lucky ******* use as a seat
Heads crack against the old porcelain water fountain
And feet trip over the wobbly doorstops
We carve our names in the walls
And scuff our shoes on the floor
I bury my nose in the dusty pages of a book
And laugh halfheartedly when someone calls my name
We huddle like penguins in the Arctic

That's Seattle I suppose
And we have never been happier, I think.
Robyn Dec 2012
Everyday I'm falling deeper
I stalk you like a creeper, creeper
Nothing can keep me away
EnderMen better stay away
I'll travel to the Nether for you
I'd **** the EnderDragon for you
I started with 10 hearts to spare
But now I couldn't really care
The only heart that's really crucial
Is the one I give to you
I've traveled deserts, plains, and seas
Fought cougars, Ghasts, and rotting zombies
I've looted desert temples and villiages
I am nothing but a pillagar
I'll love you until I'm very old
But its as hard to find you as a stronghold
I started with 10 hunger to spare
But now I couldn't really care
If you're hungry, I know what I'd do
I'd give all my food to you
Because I love you (Minecraft)
I really do
Robyn May 2013
All I ask for
Is a few minutes
That's all I need
God
You may ask me
"Why so little?"
Because
My minutes are longer than yours
So God
All I ask for is a few minutes
A few minutes
Is all I need
Robyn Nov 2015
My prayer - sitting in the car before work

God,
Please make today better.
It sounds selfish but
I kinda want something amazing to happen today.
Something that makes it impossible for me to be miserable.
Like Ryan.
I want a miracle God.
Like Ryan.
Something to make the day less heavy.
Something to make the time less slow.
Anything to cheer me up right now God.
A miracle.
Robyn Dec 2012
My prison could not be more pleasant
My jail could be more sweet
If so explain to me this pile
Of letters that sits at my feet
My tears pattern the paper
And the fire won't give me its heat
Robyn Dec 2012
Misery
You've never been so good to me
Misery
You've never been so kind
You've stayed awake with me, through all my hardest nights
You've put your arm round me, when he wouldn't look twice

Misery, I beseech thee
Though you've been what holds up my bones
Misery, I am begging
It's time I hold them up on my own
Misery, I know you've set me free
But I didn't ask you to follow me home
Robyn Mar 2014
"Believe in yourself!"
"Be who you want to be!"
"Be weird!"
"Embrace your differences!"
"You're unique!"
"No labels!"
"Don't care what other people think!"
Cheered the girl with MissMe jeans
Three hundred MissMe wearing girls cheered back
Robyn Apr 2013
Selfish
Ungrateful
How hateful
Am I?
You're all that I asked for
But I said goodbye
How could I?
You are perfect
And ask little of me
Above me
Gods laughing
And basking
In irony

I'm so, so sorry

You notice the little things
The things I do barely
And warily
I loved you
But I still wasn't careful
I used you
And hurt you
And I miss everything of you
Though I still cannot love you

I want you to know

That if I ever do
I will never say no
Yes, this is about you.
Robyn May 2014
mnyamata,
it's been 9 months. I'm 16 and you're 17. We've known one another since we were little. Little little. In Sunday school, when you were the angry little boy who didn't feel like he belonged and I can't remember what kind of little girl I was. You say we were friends, I say we weren't. I don't know if either of us really remember. When I was 11, you moved away. I don't remember minding much, apart from missing your sister, who was my friend. You got tall and tan and sweet. I got skinny and tall and smart. Now we're both a little chubby but I don't think either of us really care. Four years you were gone. The day you walked through the doors of my church, I was the first person to hug you. You got home June 16th. I knew I liked you on June 17th. I knew I loved you on the Fourth of July. We started dating on the 28th of July. I was your first kiss on the 18th of August. It's been 9 months. I don't care that I'm 16 and you're 17. I don't care that you're sick all the time. I don't care about anything except the moment 4 and a half years from now when I can be yours officially. I will pinky promise you all my years at the altar.

ndimakukonda
Robyn Feb 2013
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There's a NOISE outside
Thunder or trash can?
A beep, beep, beeping in the kitchen
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Robyn Mar 2020
Drowning, sputtering
Stuttering happiness
Clapping small hands
Handling chaos
Chaotic surroundings
But I feel like I'm drowning
In gratefulness
Thankfulness
Feels like I can't deserve
Any of this
I am happy
Finally
Robyn Jan 2015
I hope that you will hold my fingers to your lips every single time there is a scary part in a movie.
I hope that I'll be able to feel your hot breath on my hand.
I hope that I can look over and see your blue eyes widened to dinner plates that you can't tear away from the screen.
I hope that I'll always be able to look at you and write a poem in my head - because you are the best poetry I've ever written.
Robyn Jun 2015
When you rest your guitar on my knee and make up songs about my beauty

When you tell our friends all about how we fell in love

When you grab ahold of me on the doorstep and kiss me hard

When you cradle me in your arms in you parked car - in my driveway

When you tangle your fingers in the fibers of my hair - kissing me like I'm your oxygen tank
Robyn Jan 2013
And we fight
But it's alright
Because we both have tears to shed

And we fight
But it's alright
Because we'll fight until we're dead
Robyn Jun 2014
The way you smile when you look at me
- How you can fall in love with me all over again while I'm walking down the stairs
- How you honestly care about making me happy
- The way your blue eyes light up in the sun
- The long, gentle kisses you give my hands
- The sweatpants that you let me borrow
- How often you tell me you miss me
Robyn Nov 2012
For all the years I lay upon Her
I never knew Her name
But to Her its all the same
For all the years my tears have soaked Her
I hope to never cry again
But to Her it feels like rain
For all the years my lies befell Her
I never felt Her pain
But to me its all the same
For all the years I've kissed Her surface
I never heard Her sing
But I think She'll give me wings
Robyn Jan 2013
It was a highway that brought me here
Stuffed into a expensive car with four adults and good music
We drove for what seemed hours
Arriving on the slick, black streets of the Emerald City
Down a rabbit hole of old cars and termite ridden stairs
Past an old couch and a stray cat
Into a cold room with heaters stacked and jumbled
Full of pianos and good and beer
People I've known for twelve years
And people I've met only once
People I don't know
Different skins, of their own, of animals
Frizzy and cropped hair, wine and mason jar glasses
Walls painted silver, gleaming under forty year old lamps
Mismatched furniture and occupants alike
Sirens singing in the background
Children running through the foreground
Old friends and a blind man with a big dog
Visual artists and IRS agents
Musicians and carpenters
Mechanical engineers
Cobbled together around and old fireplace and a rosewood piano
Sharing stories and songs, sons and daughters
Tales from the road, and wedding pictures
I sat on an orange pleather couch in the makeshift kitchen
Watching theses people's children play with bionicles and dolls
Reading books and drawing on walls
Playing drums and answering calls
Fighting for bathroom stall
These are my people
I know them all
Robyn Mar 2017
Anxiety is - hearing your co-workers talk quietly in another room, and assume they're planning to fire you. (With no evidence whatsoever).

Depression is - telling yourself you deserve to be fired anyway.
Robyn Apr 2017
There's a little family here.
The three of us.
Perhaps a future,
Or simply just a present.
But forever a gift. This little family -
Of ours.
I could listen to you two noodle on your guitars forever.
Robyn May 2016
My Cosmonaut
Scouring the stars for me
His life is all night and glitter
As I watch from my little marble
He floats
He flies
My Cosmonaut will rise
To the challenge
And bring a little space back
For me
Robyn Dec 2012
With a black dress in my arms
And a black phone in my hand
And a black look in my eyes
I stand outside the class
And nurture my despise
Robyn Dec 2012
I'd open with a Dear or Love
I think I'd say I love you
But the truth is not between your lungs
The truth is high above you
The days of late we have converged
Inside the smallest room
I'd glance at you and hear you laugh
Her face would bring me gloom
I've wanted to say this for some time
I've felt it even longer
But with each darkened day that falls
My lips become weaker, not stronger
I use this letter to save my lips
From letting certain secrets slip
And use my fingers to write you this
Though I doubt you'll read it
The thought of holding you to me
Brings me these pleasant shudders
But when I think to ask you for it
Only silence my lips sputter
You are all I've asked for
But not what I thought I'd need
I've never been one to follow
The rules I do not heed
I imagined you much different
But with still the same wonder
You're caliber of similarity
Has torn my head asunder
Your beauty has no ends it seems
Though you do not uphold it
You only show it when you sing
And it alights my spirit
I've know you all my life in dreams
My patience broken like a bough
If I told you, you might appear confused
And you might ask me how
I'd smile sweetly and sit you down
Then it would never be the same
After I said I'd known you all my life
But I had never known your name
Robyn Mar 2015
Congestion
Headache
Sore throat
Persistent cough
Hiccups
Insomnia
Sore muscles
Cold
Stress
Anxiety
Loneliness
Darkness
Irritated, itchy eyes
Dry skin
Exhaustion
Poverty
Poetry
And you
Not being here to help me
Robyn Jan 2013
My love is murmurous
I do not shout for fear of being shouted down
My love is ineffable
I do not, cannot speak my mind
My love is gossamer
I do not care to braid it through my hair
My love is incipient
I do not intend to leave your side, until I can be by your side
My love is petrichor
I do not know its name, but I smell it after rain
My love is dulcet
I do not taste it anymore
My love is sick
I do not want to love you
Robyn Dec 2012
She will leave one day
I know it, I've always known it
But I chose to ignore it
When she turned eighteen
When she turned nineteen
She'll be twenty one in four months
And I'm still ignoring it
I used to imagine a day
When her wheezing old SUV
Would be stuffed to the ceiling with trophies
And duffel bags
The only things she had in her room
When she was twelve
I imagined hugging her thin frame
Cherishing the warmth of her stomach
And soaking her shirt with my tears
Then with a sad smile
She would squeeze through the door
And trundle on down the road
Her old soccer trophies glinting off the dull sunlight
That filtered through layers of clouds
And pine needles
But that day is not today
And she is still my sister
Robyn Jul 2014
The statue was dark and broad
The sparse beginnings of a beard etched onto his strong face
He was in a sitting position, face turned away from me
The sun was beginning to set and met his eyes like the artist had planned it
His eyes were blue and lit up like forest fires so bright I lost my breath
His lips were still but looked like they might just twitch from their small half smile/ half grimace at any second
He had dark, gentle curls that twisted every which way like hallways on his head
And crowned the top of his ears, which the summer had made pink
His strong arms were bare and a little paler, I traced their shape over and over with my fingers
His hands and long thick fingers were wrapped around his left knee, as if in pain
He was, but he would never tell me so
The statue was perfect, still and full of life
Silent, making my heart pound so vulnerably loud I was afraid he would hear it
He must have, because he turned his face towards me and I could see my warped reflection in his eyes that shone like fire, and I could feel my stomach tighten and my breathing quicken and my hands make fists
And he looked at me for a moment before chuckling and asking "What are you looking at?"
I laughed, the irony lost on him and I never told him
He just took his hand from his knee, and slowly stroked my face from temple to jaw, smile widening and eyes brightening and he kissed me, lips warm
My statue, my little masterpiece
Robyn Feb 2013
A man in love is never lazy
A man is never right
Men not in love; attentive, hazy
You're not, so I will sleep tonight
Robyn Sep 2014
My AP Lit teacher said
"You are young. You all think you are going to live forever."

The 18 year old Mom with two jobs replied
"We are . . . aren't we?"
Robyn May 2015
I need you not to panic
Not to "nevermind"
I need you not to run away
I need you not to hide
Stop putting walls around yourself
When I need you most
I just need you to talk to me
But you won't

I need you to be here with me now
And not lost in dreaming about the future
So many paths
Will it last
Neither of us can ever know
So please
Stop thinking about it
Think about now
I need you NOW
Not seven years from now
Two years, ten years
Too many tears spent wasted on
Fear of the future
Dear future husband -
I need you to see me
I'm right here beside you
Telling you that we can figure it out together
And you're trying to figure it out on your own
But the truth is
You can't tell the future
She needs you
I need you
I need you to see me
Please ******* believe me
There's no time for worry
Please - stop all this hurry
Just love me and hug me
Wait patiently for me
Don't jump the gun
Or you won't get to adore me
Have patience
Have patience
We can't tell the future
So stop all this crying
And stop all this trying to
Know what God's planned for us
After all
We're just dust
Just love me and hug me
And try not to lose me
I'll never let anything get in between
You and I
And our Father
Who art thou in heaven
He waits patiently for us
While we wait patiently for one another
Building
Blocks
Of
A
Marriage
Need
To
Dry
Robyn Feb 2015
They say there has not been a single day without construction in New York City for over 100 years
Cranes loom above the stumps of skyscrapers like skeletal fingers
And the noise is the anthem of the city
God drops a box of tools he used to build the Earth - and the noise reverberates around the universe until it bounces between the buildings of Manhattan for all eternity
The trickle of traffic lulls children to sleep
No noise is loud enough to drown out another
Framework and scaffolding decorate the sky in lacy corpses
As the white men build their way toward the dollar signs in the stars
Civilians walk the streets in black
Mourning for city that has not yet died and will never sleep
Rushing to a funeral - rushing up ladders
A man runs up the stairs - craving only the elevation and never the satisfaction
Man in neon uniform affirm themselves by yelling at women they will never know - wanting only to dominate the space
Building, always building - toward the nothing the city has not found yet

One day - there will be no more left to build
The skies will no longer be scraped but injected
The sky will not be seen
Useless legacies will tower over the city
In black for the funeral that has finally arrived
The city dies and there is no noise
No noise
No noise
No noise
No noise
The silence is perverse to the inhabitants of New York
A permanent funeral
The people do not know how to mourn
They do not know silence
And the white men - building their worth floor by floor - discovered there were no dollar signs in the stars
There were only stars
And stars meant nothing to them

New York is silent.
And the people begin to scream.
Robyn Apr 2015
She came -
Dripping in blood
Like all the plagues of heaven
Ethereal torture
I've fallen in love -
With a demon
Robyn Jan 2013
Driving home from school
I heard a whimper in the backseat
Turning around
I saw her chubby fingers at her nose
Blood dripping on her shirt
"****" I said
Stopped the car and jumped across my seat
Tissue at her button nose
She didn't cry
"You're so brave"
I whispered with a kiss on her cheek
"Red is a pretty color huh?"
I said, trying to cheer her up
"Yeah, like a wose" She squeaked
I smiled
"Or a stwabewy"
"Very good, sweetheart"
I said
Robyn Mar 2016
Will the vibrations my footfalls make - make a difference?
Will they leave anything behind for the bugs and the rats in the ground?
The grit -
What will be left where my footprints sit?
Scuffs, scratches -
Or maybe I'll make the ground smooth where I walk
When I talk -
Do my words matter?
Will the things I say shatter -
Or create something new?
Will I leave a trail -
Or will I simply make a trail for someone else?
Does my foot tapping -
To other people's art -
Count as my own?
Or am I just a collection of reactions?
Unable to make others react?

Other people play piano
Other people sing
I can't do either
I can't do nothing
I can't do a single thing

Other people paint a picture
Other people dance
I've tried, I've failed
I can't do nothing

But I can't just do nothing anymore
Robyn Mar 2017
Anxiety is - a searing pain in your left thigh that only appears when you're at work.
Robyn Feb 2013
You've torn is apart
We used to be one
But it's done
And you'd much rather ****** our ears
With your playing of ivory
And your cackling leer
You're hurting us
Hurting us
And though we're not better
There's one thing to fix you
One day you'll understand
So come on World
**Go get her.
Robyn Jul 2013
388 songs
5 hours
6 weeks
20.1 miles
5.5 months

To listen to
To talk
You've been home
Apart
Until I'm yours
Robyn Sep 2014
Occasionally I wonder
If He ever hears my cries
Then I begin to wonder
If I'll ever meet His eyes

Occasionally I wonder
If He ever hears my prayers
Did Jesus ever feel like
He was falling down the stairs?
Robyn Jul 2013
I'm the pig faced ******* a red bike
So shiny
I thought
How he'll ooo and ahh
When the tires pop
I become
The pig faced girl making paper cranes
So bright
I thought
How he'll coo
When the paper tears
I become
The pig faced girl who loves flowers
So smart
I thought
How he'll whisper
When winter comes
I become
The pig faced girl who can play piano
So beautiful
I thought
How he'll exclaim
When my fingers bleed
I become
The pig faced girl in a pretty dress
How beautiful he'll think me

Turns out
I'm just the pig faced girl to him
Robyn Jan 2013
I.
Have you always been this dark?
I asked the night.
There was no reply.
No one is sight.
Have you always been this cold?
I asked the wind.
There was no reply.
It brushed my shins.

II.
Curled against me
All but frozen
Save my fingers, toes and nose and
I knew that you have seen me here
Were you overcome by fear?
You didn't follow me outside
So now, with me, the night
Will cry

III.
Do you know what you've done?
Interrupting my scene
Ruining my fun
This is all about me

IV.
Have you always been this bright?
I asked the stars.
There was no reply.
Just the sound of cars.
Robyn Dec 2012
She writes like she's mad
Though she's not, she's just abandoned
Since the day this began, several choices she's been handed
On this trek through this war, she so longs for a companion
All decisions lead to the same place
All directions will lead to his face
She's fallen in the middle of a race
And there's blood streaming down her face
Robyn Dec 2015
One winter closer
One degree cooler
To one degree warmer
One winter closer
One more long stride
Until we're no longer hiding
One winter closer
Three seasons more
Until we're two winters close
But we're one winter closer
We're a dozen kisses closer to each other
We're a million cents away from being one
A thousand days away from winter sun
We're impatient, ever waiting
Waiting for the waiting to be done
One winter closer
To being one
Robyn May 2013
It's good to hear your blessings
You give when  others don't
It's good to know you love me
You speak when others won't
Robyn Oct 2016
In the winter
You'll hold my hand
And I'll hold her life
In mine

So small
So fragile
So shiny
Ours
Keasbey.
Robyn Jan 2013
Shallow
Stupid
Oh, SO stupid
Naive
Lying
Saying
You're Dying
Does not get you pity
Does not make you witty
So grow up
And shut up
And leave me alone
Robyn Feb 2017
Anxiety is - feeling like you might have a heart attack at 19. The tightness in your chest confuses you and surrounds you.

Anxiety is - feeling like you have to *****, every minute.

Anxiety is - showing up late to work everyday, because you cannot . . . You simply cannot make yourself get out of bed. You're paralyzed.
Stuck.
Robyn Feb 2013
To my lover
I don't think I could ever be a mother
Watching a child
That was not my child
Fall and hurt her head
I screamed
And panicked
Thinking she was dead
So I'm sorry
My lover
But that was terrifying
And I don't think I could ever be a mother
Robyn Jul 2013
She had a frazzled sort of look about her. Wispy hair fell into her eyes which were watering from the allergies she often complained about, the ones that caused her nosebleeds so heavy, she'd nearly faint from blood loss. But beneath her red eyes and curly hair was this pale, pink cheeked girl who listened to  punk and wrinkled her nose. She was like an antique. Something worn down, beautiful and full of secrets and memories, that you'd find under a pile of books in a dark corner. She was sarcastic, flighty and judgmental, constantly angry with the world and culture that she'd been ****** into. She spent all her time forcing beauty and laughter into people's lives so they wouldn't see the shattered pieces of the world and subsequently herself that she tried to hide behind her back. Others might see this as sly or deceitful but it wasn't. Her lies were the selfless kind, if such exist. She wanted to protect people from the world that wore her down so cruelly and quickly, she became an antique person by the age of fifteen. This frazzled, determined, lovely girl may not change the world, but she changed my life.
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