Take my hand
Board this roller coaster of peace
Ride the wind with passion
Let the words you write carry you
To a new beginning
To the land of luxury
I'll lead you
Carry you to safety
Til you can stand on your own
Welcome home Logen

I unfortunately wont be getting on for a while. I am taking a break until I have a muse and inspiration. I just don't have anything to write about. I'm sorry but farewell for now.

Your poems are inspirational
Every word like rants of a genius
I have noticed the mispelling
Also the grammatical errors
But Clarisa I enjoy everyone of your works.

I saw today become tomorrow
While tomorrow became yesterday
And my watch hasn't moved a hand
Both still gripping the steering wheel
Waiting for the red light to turn green
And leave this ghost town day
In the dust of next week

Your young I know
But listen to my words
You want 10,000 views I believe
Here is some advice
Open your heart
Let your hand do the writing
Let your pen think for you
You have great potential
Emily
Don't just write a poem
And expect everyone to read it
Write a poem that means everything to you
About you and for you

You must really like my work
Ever since you discovered me
You have liked every poem
Perhaps not all of them
My poetry is not that good
Sakota's is better
Jojo I also enjoy reading your poems
The wide eyed ****** expressions
Of mind blowing stanzas
Keep writing by all means

Too far
I have come to let it all end
Too long
I have been fighting for it
Yet at this moment
I'm looking down twelve stories
To the concrete below
Knowing that will be where it ends
Everything I have worked for
Everything I have fought for
Comes to a crashing end
My bones with mix with the asphalt
My blood will mix with the sewer water
And my body will become nothing
But a stain in the side of the sidewalk
Too far
I have been pushed to the edge
Too long
I have tolerated the *******
No more
This ends
And I hope my blood alcohol level
Mixed with the antidepressants
And the cuts on my wrist
Are evident enough when my body plummets
Scatters into an oblivion

Took too long
Clearing my head
Uncertainties clouding
Insecurities piling
Am I good enough
Does your dad like me enough
Do I stand before him a man
Or a coward not sure
If I’ll be able to handle it
Supporting no longer just me
Barely managing my own chaos
Yet your eyes cut through me
Diamonds to glass
You saw a man
That could walk with you
Through hell and high water
A man worthy of your love
I never saw that’s what I became
But I know what I feel
Happy in your arms
Safe in your heart
Rich in your love
That’s why I have to lay claim
To your precious hand
And ask you to marry me
A question I never thought
Would make me happier
When it was answered

Not by a minute
Not by an hour
Nor a month or year
But by a second
We said sorry too late
Should have been the first thing
Before I said I love you
Before we poured our hearts out
Toasted to the *******
Drank our emotions
Drunk on each other's words
Finding comfort even if it was a myth
For a second at least
But it was too late
We already said hello
We already knew each other
Before our hearts skipped a beat
Well...at least mine
Danced over satellite signals
Sent smiles father then expected
But it was too late
Our fate was sealed
Sorry had no worth
Apologies only seemed pointless
Guilt was another fable
Yet I would have been all twelve
Knights of the round table
Had you asked
If only we were strangers again
I'd say it first
Before it lost all meaning
Before we knew what it was
To say it over and over
Curled up in corners
Rocking ourselves to sleep
Hoping we didn't write our nightmares
While they wrote our reality
If only hitting the backspace
Was permanent without a doubt
I'd have turned it black and blue
It's just too late
We lost each other before ourselves

When does enough become enough
When do I finally cave
I tried to love you
But it wasn't me who failed
You failed my heart
I entrusted you with it all
I pushed past the heartache
Refused to bow to the pain
And you blew it like a kiss
I'm glad I can say
You're the past
Frozen in time
I'm the future
Always moving forward

Did she love me?
Does she now?
What can I do to get her back?
Am I useless?
Pathetic and weak by choice?
Did I forget who I was?
What the **** is wrong me?
I'm tired of the questions
Never accompanied by an answer
It's just somebody's opinion
That aggravates the rage
This ******* cliche life
Is a ruined wasteland
I might as well end
She awoken the sleeping poet in me
****, now I know why it went to sleep
One answer sponds two more questions
Should I love this girl to the fullest?
Should I avoid asking her out?
How badly will I hurt her?
Will she be the one to hurt me?
Life full of riddles and I'll riddle something for you
Is a life worth living if it was never given a chance to be lived?

Ritual circles drawn
Sacrificing all I had
In talents long gone
Gave it all up
Inspiration fading
Who am I now
Without pen and paper
A pencil without lead
Blank canvases fill my head
Artistry I sacrificed
Just to find love
Only finding the devils smile
Smirking at the joy
Of watching me wither in pain
I have nothing left
Too much lost
And I feel it all over again
Losing what little I held on to
Falling on the knife
Slitting the throat of my creativity
Bleeding it dry in every moment
I stay stuck in this ritual
Of self destructive tendencies
Is there no escape
Can I find my inspiration
Without knowing who I am
Little by little
I lose more of what I knew
All that helped me cope
With everything around me
My world of fantasy
No longer an image I can draw
No longer the words I write
Too much lost
And nothing gained
Someone tell me how
How do I get it all back
When it's been lost for too long

Should I love you
Do I even know how too

Table clothed in razor blades and whips
Serrated edges and pointy objects
I wonder how long my victims can last
A slice to each ******
Lay on a bed of needles
Drill holes under each eyelid
Cut a whole in the back of their head
Skull **** them and watch as ***
Bleeds out through their nose
Cigarette burns cover one leg
While the other is dressed
With barbwire growing tighter
Stretch them till their toes snap off
I believe their dead
No
Alive
Rat in a bucket with a torch
How fast can this rat run through your intestines
Lets time it
Not fast enough
Perhaps this method of torture
Doesn't beat the one you put me through
But any form
Its still uncomfortable
That's how I killed the voices in my head

You read my poetry
You love how I write
You now know the story
Behind those words
You understand the emotions
And the reasons why I have them
Sakota
You may not know me as a person
Yet you know me as a poet
You now see I am here
Whenever you need me
And I hope you pick up the phone
Cry your eyes out
Find a friend in me
And know your not alone
With the pain that you have
This is not the beginning of a friendship
But the beginning of a great team
We are greatness
We are poets
And we survive through the treacherous roads
That now you have me
All 5' 8 1/2", 220 lbs of me
Walking with you
Ready to listen
Ready to talk
Ready to help you
Whenever you decide
To dial (225) 244-0791

I have come to know you
I have been falling for you
I honestly don't know why
You make me smile
You helped me tear away my mask
I love you for this
Your poetry has been enjoyable
Sakota
I will keep this short
I have written 4 other poems for you
This number 5
And I shall say thank you
I love you
Keep writing please

You tore her away from me
You bound her to me bed
You ***** her
You took your knife
And stabbed her over 30 times
Before you slit her wrist
And watched her bleed out

You sick *******
One day I will have my revenge
I will show you what its like
I'm even more sick and twisted
I'll make you pay for this
She was everything to me
You ******* stole my life away

I spent the last 5 years
Looking no hunting you down
Now that I found you
I see you have three little kids
A wife so gorgeous
You love them all don't you
Now you get to watch them die

I'll start with the youngest child
He's what 1 year old
I'll cut his toes and fingers off
Then his knees and elbows
Shoulders and hips
Then slit his throat and cover you in his blood
And watch as he bleeds out

How about your daughter
She's three right
Well I'll cut out her eyes
Sow her mouth shut
Cut her open
And pull her insides out
You can see her pain

Where were you
Their father, their savior, and protector
Daddy couldn't save them
Well how do you think I felt
When you stole my life
She was everything
And I wasn't there to protect her

Now for your oldest
He's seven ain't he
I'll cut him up
Pull out his insides
Cover you in in his blood
As it pours out
All over the floor

Now for your wife
Your sweet tender wife
I have something special for her
Something that will make you remember
What it was exactly you did
5 years ago today
When you stole her away from me

I'll bound her to your bed
I'll **** her
Take my knife
And tab her over 30 times
Slit her wrist

How does it feel
To be dressed in the blood
Of all those closest to you
Now you know what I felt
Now you can beg for death
But I wont give it to you
I'll make you an amputee
So you can't **** yourself

I want you to live with this pain
5 years from today
Maybe then I'll come back
And rip your pathetic life away
But I guess I already did
So leave and suffer
Feel my pain

I'll be watching
Your death will be by my hands
And it wont be pleasant
Because by the time you leave
The bomb I placed in your chest
Will explode, leaving you nothing
But residue on the grass

From your words
From your blood
You have created a rare breed
Of expressive people
To the poets
From ages ago
From the poems we still read
To find inspiration
We say thank you
This day dedicated to you
To all of us
To the rarest of people
We are poets
And today is our day
We own a day
Guess we are important somehow
To the poets
To the blood that runs through our veins
To the tears
That have scarred our cheeks
As we plaster those emotions
Deep into every crack and line
Within the sheets of paper
From the confounds of our soul
We pour ourselves out
To become a poet
And gladly be honored
To the poets before the poets
I say thank you

I’ve seen many fall
Watched even more
Rise to the occasion
Tackling oxygen deficiency
Then fall to the gusts
There are those
That died standing
Never a limb breaking
The surviving corpse
Of an era no longer in observation
Limbs still reaching
Clinging onto the faint hope
It’ll see the day
The children stop climbing
And start flying

I’m not eager to know you
Greet you on casual terms
I’d rather leave it all a mystery
Let life have its thrills
Even when I know
Your humor is limitless
So in my next life
Make me a blade of grass
Then I’ll be exactly as I am
Getting cut down
To grow again
Only to be ****** and **** on
Starve for deeper understanding
That I hold the earth together
Direct raindrops
So they never fall alone
Bend and conform
To the soles of your shoes
Always catching you when you fall
Leaving an encore on your arms
When you roll down a hill
Enjoying those childish memories
I just want you to know
In my next life
Make me no worse then I am
And no better
Seems I found my niche
Whatever I become

I thought about this a lot lately
wondering if the world was big enough
maybe too small
for me to be worried about everything that goes on
Im a leaf on a decaying tree
wondering if i could fly on the next southern breeze
So you see it seems all i ever needed in my life was her
a future where i know everything is real
not a fantasy where I'm still stuck in the clouds
but every decision I've ever made
i dont regret it
i forgot the worries of not wanting to live
forgot the problems where my self esteem was determined
by whether or not the hottest girl in school
thought i was good looking or not
it was never about the amount of **** i smoked
the amount of drugs i have done
its always been about pursuing a happier life
and when your just about to give up
thats when it is guaranteed
a life worth living
a path finally opening
when dead end signs are thrown into your face
to whom it may concern
I'm sorry it took for ever for me to realize
that even as an athiest
I still have a place in a religious world
i put my faith in the power of will
so here i write one more time
Even as a demon
dreams become reality when you believe hard enough

If you tore the mask from my face
The only thing you'll find
Is another mask
I'm never going to be the person
Everybody wants me to be
I'll never have the perfection
Society deems desirable
I'm just the kid trying to make a name for himself
Even if it's temporarily written in the sands
Of the most gorgeous of beaches

Every tear is like a bullet
Piercing through my chest
Spiritual shadows putting holes
Where you once laid your head
The river of mascara and eyeliner
That stains your pillows
Matches the blood the floods
My once white shirt
Baby please stop crying
I still love you
Yet I know those tears aren't for me
Nor are they the keys I gave you
To the gates of my heart
They're the tears I can't wipe away

My words vacant
Abandoned dictionary
Lost muse
Cardinal directions reversed polarity
Abyss open before me
Dead end on every highway
Weight of mammoths
Burdening broken shoulders
Does anybody have a cigarette

I'd go to war with every god
Just to see you smile one more time
I'd spill the blood of a million
Just to save your soul
I'd set the world ablaze
Just to hear you giggle
I'd slit my own throat
Just to have you breathe a sigh of relief
I'd bath your enemies in my blood
Just to have them stop hunting you
My love their isn't anything I wouldn't do
Just to have you in the safety
Of my castle arms once again

I'm tired of walking fine lines
Puddles iced over
Deep enough to swallow trains
Cracking due to the bitterness
My reflections holds
I'm tired of walking with my hood up
A hockey mask on
And a silhouette of fear
Glued on my face
I just want to exist
Be free of the pressure
Write for me
Live because I'm worth it
Yet everything around me knows
Even the cracking ice
That I'll fall
Into the bottomless puddles
Watch as my reflection breathes life
The very life I failed in

Call it rambling
Emotional poker chips
I'm tired of gambling
My heart's turning dark
Ace of spades
Feels like I can't do it
Yearning for it
Scared of it
What would happen
How would it play out
Who would miss me first
The most
Who'd ask who I was
As they drop me in the hole
How many tears would fill
Eyes I've dried so many times
How many wouldn't shed one
Is this the defeat before the surrender
Will I go out like a viking
Longboat and fire sails
Perhaps a slave
Tossed into concrete
Making city walls stronger
How would it look
How many noted do I leave behind
Who'd read them anyway
I'm tired of it all
Someone's gotta know
I'm dying inside
And nothings saving me
Thoughts getting louder
Body's itching
Minds racing
It's dysfunction all around
Maybe I need sleep
See if that helps
Any longer I can't promise anything

Lost for words yet again
1:24am still awake
Head filled with screams
Laughter following
Hounds on a fox hunt
Looking for a sign
Where the rabbit tracks start
Tumbleweeds rolling
Maybe if I keep listening
I’ll finally hear that poetic voice
The shy one
Only speaking when it’s had enough
When silence becomes its enemy
Provoking embers into flames
I’ll continue to jot down
Asking if it has anything to say
Alcohol anonymous meetings
Share your feelings
The reasons for your actions
Pass when you don’t feel like it
Somethings got to give
Please just say something to me
Anything
Even if it is
Another suicide note
We can’t carry out
Deaths not a fast food restaurant
We simply wait for a table

She has hair that flows
She has ***** big enough for my hands
She has an *** too big for her pants to contain
She has my heart
For the rest of our days
But I can't help feeling
Like she still deserves better
She doesn't deserve someone so dark
So hateful to this world
She doesn't deserve to know the chaos
Hiding under milometers of flesh
I love her with all my essence
With all that I was, will be, and to come
Maybe one day I'll be the man for her that she deserves
But for now I'll work harder then ever
To get to that point
I love you Alexis Lynn
Maybe this was my destiny
A sign from death that she wasn't ready for me
I'm at home wherever her heart lays

Shut up and dance
Take my money
Pour me another drink
Jack and coke
A blunt to go with it all
******* bouncing in my face
How did I get in here
I'm too young
Must have been
The extra $20 I slipped him
I can barely see her
Slowly taking my money
How much to bring you home
How long till I'm broke
**** it
I'll find some *******
Live the life of a politic
Robs going to lose himself
To the darkness wanting to forget
The very thing that brought me light

Beads of sweat rolling down his back
Her fingernails digging ditches
Run offs for it all to escape
Lungs gasping for air
As he reaches further down her throat
Loaded cannon he aims and fires
She swallows with a grin
They watch from windows
Getting off as they work up more sweat
More moans to fill their desires
**** through a window seal
Ducking and covering with every position swap
Her on her hands and knees
Begging to be ravished from behind
She cries out for it to go deeper
His hand around his ****
Knowing any minute he'll ***
Him slapping her ***
The thrill of the hunt
Chasing her ******
Through every hole she possesses
Making her look like the filth
These peeping toms enjoy

She said tomorrow
But tomorrow never comes
Yesterday was history
And today she remains silent
A lurking nomad
Trying to find home
But caves were made for bats
Why dwell in my chest?

Ageless demons
Etched on the wrists of youth
Sorrow carved on thighs
Skirts growing longer
Depression erasing the sun in their smile
Time lost at the end of smoking barrels
Where did love end
That caused hatred to infect innocence
Insults added to injury
Injury no longer helping
Death seeming to solve temporary problems
Yet they still follow
Why do mouths scorned continue to move
While mourning tears cease to exist

When does it become too long
Or maybe long enough?
8 years?
How many times does it have to be said?
How loud do I have to say it?
Till it echoes?

I love you

Guess 8 years is long enough
It echoed you just didn't hear
Sorry but this time goodbye
Will have been louder
Than the millions of times
I whispered, screamed, and choked
On three words that have no value
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough
Sorry I loved you the longest
The most
You were the one beam
In this vacant home
Keeping me upright
You snapped
I'm staying down
**** these emotions
They can be the dust
The wind stole when I hit the ground
It was over before love was a reality
It was over before age touched my eyes
Guess bye is the only response
I'll have for you
I love you has no meaning
No worth in both our hearts
Corpses weren't meant to breathe
So I'll let this heart stay dead

United we stand
Divided we fall
Yet around every corner
Someone holds your hand
On the first few blocks
Then throws you to the wolves
On the last two
Expecting your ideals
To measure up
To the person who it will matter to
When you're after your dream
Why is it relevant anymore
This political game of chess
We play with lives and the future
It's only human to step
On your **** once in a while
And trip over your *****
But I don't need your criticism
Or enlighten expectations
Demanding me to be better
Then the next person
We're all chasing different dreams
Fighting for a world
We all see differently
With overlapping points
That seem to disagree with another's
I've never seen a perfect person
Glorious in presence, mind, and soul
I've seen only failures
That aim to be better then before
Or giving up because that's all they know
Don't force your ideals
We all have the same goal
Survive and make life easier
For the seeds we plant
To help the planet flourish

I reached for you this morning
Smooth, soft skin usually needing my warmth
But that 5'2 angelic body was gone
Flew from the nest at the earliest hours
Between 2 and 3
I looked for you under the sheets
Hoping you didn't fall too deep into slumber
You were crying on my chest
Just before the lights went out
You signalled to me you were comfortable
As the drool fell from your slumbering mouth
Too cute is the way you sleep
Half on me while your feet dangle off the bed
So baby have a good day at work
I'll see you tonight
Come home quickly
I cooked you dinner this morning

Her body close to me
I never meant to chase her
She scouted me from across the room
Hands exploring every curve
Double D's firmly cupped
My calloused hands wanting to travel
Cradle the edge of her chin
As her lips press against mine
Alcohol taking over
These X pills kicking in
******* it why did it have to be like this
Finally feeling the softness of a woman's touch
After chasing my own tail
Hoping her feelings would come to meet mine
But anger blinded me
Love asphyxiating my judgement
True I stopped caring
But ******* I love this feeling
******* again for the first time
Since I said I love you
The third time since we stopped talking
I dont even know how I made it through work today
Candy lips still stuck on mine
How did I survive today
Two hours of sleep
Begging for morning ***
Before she's out the door
**** my life is so much better
Not caring whether I love or not
A major distraction in a minor life
I longed for this day
Enjoyed the last minutes of my birthday
Now I'm headed back to the club
Hoping to forget you
At the bottom of every drink I buy

5’11” tall
2’6” wide
I’m a pillar of nothing
A faceless headstone
Moving around
Scouring the earth
For my final resting place
My grave lost
A hollow tomb
Unmarked
Waiting to be inscribed
With all the horrors of my misdeeds
The only good thing
To follow my soul
Will be the worms and grubs
As they hollow out my eyelids

She screams deja vu
From her curly hair
To her cerulean eyes
Drowning me in memories
I wonder when the waves
Will stop beating me
Against jagged rocks
Tooth and nail
Ripping at my sanity
Must I always miss
Those I loved
Remember only what I should have done
Instead of what I didn’t do

Help her
Save her
Someone hear her
Shes begging
Shes on her knees hoping
For someone to set her free

Shes drowning in fear
Not sure if she will survive
He told her so many lies
That her heart now dies
Slowly with every step
He takes as he walks out the door

Help him
Save him
Somebody hear him
Hes begging
Hes on his knees crying
Because no one love him

Hes always searching for something
Turning up lost
Only found when he opens up his eyes
Hes terrified of each step
Wanting to live
Knowing he will die in due time

Help them
Save them
Somebody hear them
Thier begging
Thier on thier knees praying
For a life perfect for them

They are miles apart
Knife close to thier wrist
Nuse happily around thier necks
Bottle already empty
If only they knew each other
They could of lived that perfect life
Loving each other while being free
But together unknowingly they die

I live my life in misery
I'd sacrifice this world to hold you
No breath left inside of me
Even as you walk away
I sulk in pools
Of my distress

I live my life in misery
I'd sacrifice this world to kiss you
No breath left inside me
So tell me what I have to do
Just for you
To be mine once more

I don't want to live
If I cant awake in your arms
Or tell you I love you
I just can't see myself
Without you in the picture
Because you were the best thing I ever had

I don't want to breathe
If I can't breathe the same air as you
Or take your breath away
I just won't be the same
Without seeing the look in your eyes
Everytime I walked into the room

Please don't leave me yet
Don't move on
Atleast not until I have said goodbye
And thats the hardest thing I can do
I don't want to let you
I'm still in love with you

I have failed in the past
I have pushed you away
I hurt you
When I said I never would
Sorry just doesnt cut it anymore
And I can't live with this pain I have caused

I live my life in misery
I'd sacrifice this world to hold you
No breath left inside of me
Ever since the day I failed you
Told you I was the man you wanted
But I was too broken

Can you forgive me for the pain
Will you take me back
Im sorry
Here is my heart
All the ****** and rusty pieces
Just please dont let me go

I lost you already
I know that
But can't you just speak to me
I never see you smile anymore
I never hear your voice anymore
Is this punishment

I live my life in misery
I'd sacrifice this world to hold you
No breath left inside of me
But I know I dont deserve it anyways
I just want to give us
Atleast one more chance

I look on a blank computer screen
Hoping I can write
Maybe two or three lines
Yet every word I type
Feels like a bullet to my chest
Like the whole you tore
Is growing larger

Why, how did I fall for you
I fell maybe way too deep
Yet we barely know each other
Your five star restruants
While Im garbage can dinners
And I see it in your eyes
You know I love you

I know you better than you think
I watched you break down and cry
I held you in arms so scarred
I held you in a heart so broken
Yet with teary eyes you looked up
Said you loved me
And left me in the rain

I never saw you again
I waited for you
At the very place I first saw you
Hoping to catch a glimpse of your beauty
Yet you never showed
Then it hits me
Your gone forever

You didnt move away
I would of seen the movers
Instead I remember seeing the ambulance
Six cop cars
Three fire trucks
And someone being rolled away on a stretcher
Arm dangling over the side

How could this be
Was I too poor for you
Was I not worth your happiness
Was I not worth the chance
I never got the chance to love you
And now I cant find the words to express it
To show the world how much I loved you

If I were to die tonight what would you regret not telling me?
Would you regret anything that you did or didn't do?
Would you cry for me?
Would you come to my grave
Sit there and just talk to me?
Would you leave a rose
At the foot of my headstone?
If I were to die tonight how much would you miss me?
Would you even miss me at all?
Would you think of me?
Would you dream of me?
I was there for you
When no one else was
Would I if it was you?
Call me cruel but No!!!

Do you see her?
She's in the corner
Hiding in the shadows
Ashamed of the tears
That roll down her face
Scared of the blood
That flows from her wrist

Do you see him?
He's in the closet
Hiding from the demons
Ashamed of his fears
That show in his eyes
Scared of the blood
That flows from his wrist

Do you see them?
Their on the cliff holding hands
Hanging from a tree
Ashamed of the mistakes
That show on their wrist
Scared no more
Because they found love even in death

Tears flow like a river
Down the valley of wrinkles
On my face that flood
As I cry due to today's pain

Blood flows like a waterfall
Down the cliffs of rough skin
From the cut in my wrist
That I opened due to today's pain

How can I survive today
When tomorrow will soon
Become yesterday
When yesterday could of been
The day I found peace

Rest in arms wide with care
Come rest your head
On a pillowed chest
I'll never let any harm come your way
Maybe I am lying
But I will try
Just don't leave me alone
Don't leave me to my demons
The voices in my head
Keep me safe
And let your voice
Drown out these eerie ones
Rest your shoulders
Burden me with your worries
I have more strength than you
I can be your rock
Let me grasp your anchor
Let me be the wind in your sail
Just never let me go

But I think it would be better for you if you did and just forgot me.

You say your not girlfriend material
Yet you say you love me
That you want to be with me
But reluctant to say yes
When I asked you to be my girl
I don’t care if you are afraid
I am not scared to take a risk
If I get hurt in the end
It proves to myself that I am alive
That I have *****
Big enough to put my heart on the line
To tell you I love you
Every chance I can
I am not afraid to be with you
Throw your best punches
Push as hard as you can
I am not going anywhere
I want to be your castle walls
The altar you come for forgiveness
The shoulders you need to lean on
When life beats the hell out of you
The chest you cry on
The arms you sleep in
I don’t want to be your everything
Just your boyfriend
Just the man you deserve
Which I don’t even think
I am that
But I love you
I will always love you
No matter how bruised
No matter how broken
No matter how beat up we get
When life uses us as the target
I want to be there for you
I want to be wherever you are
Because wherever you are
I will call it home
Simply because you loved me first
And your heart is my home


I love you more than you can possibly understand!

Your body tenses
You want me to kiss you more
From your lips to your neck
My hands exploring your body
Learning every curve It has
Kissing your body
Where my hands just reached
Your breathing is heavy
Our pulses racing
In sync with each others
We were born for this moment
Making love to each other
Your body so close to mine
Naked and sweaty
Smooth skin calling me on
My ******* not ceasing
Your moans growing louder
The next door neighbors
Yelling out their window
To keep it down
But how can I do that
When your slightest touch
Gets me up and hard
And all my mind and body wants
Is to have you close to me
Plunging myself deep between your legs
Going through the motions
To make you say my name
To hear you moan even louder
To feel your body twist and turn
As your ******* peaks
While my heart fuses with yours
I whisper I love you one more time
Just as I come to your voice saying the same
You beg me to stay in bed with you
Your eyes say you want me more
So I wrap you in my arms
We lay there for hours
Our hunger burning again
And I flip you on your back
Clasp both your hands
Pin you to the bed
And look into your eyes
That seem to scream that you want me
So I kiss your neck
Your body tenses again
We start making love again

With a kiss unlike any other
You stole my heart
With a glance that lingered
You stole my breath
How is this possible
Everything was under lock and key
Chained and bolted deep within walls
Left in ruins from your touch
I am afraid of this yes
Because I cannot comprehend this
This is impossible
I loved you once
I never wanted to get this close again
Not with you
I was afraid you would do it all over again
Because I have nothing to offer you

Your weak
You should of been stronger
Your **** is controlling you heart
Wake up
She doesnt love you
You are a nobody
Nobody can love you
Hell nobody knows who you are
She left you in ashes
You finally rebuilt our empire
You took control of the world
Mastered the way of life
You could end a life
If it wasnt a crime

You are so beautiful
Matured in a way
Perfect like fine wine
How is this possible
That with a simple kiss
A simple glance in my direction
A simple touch on my arm
Has me falling once more
My mind tangled
My walls ruined and rubbled
Not even a pebble stands
Is it you my heart, soul, body, and mind
Wishes to endulge in
Over and over till the world stops moving
Even after that
Our bodies laying together
Feeling the passion of a reborn love

You are a fool
Can you not see
This is all due to your hormones
You heart has nothing to do with it
You are so willing to lay it out there
To be executed by any woman
Then curl up in a ball
And depress yourself even further
With the constant thought of her
You want what you cant have
Hate what you have
And abandon the things that want you
This is you
This is the way you are
Are you even listening to me
Dont try
Dont **** yourself
Using her as the blade
The bottle and pills
The bullet to the 45
Listen you **** fool
She is going to hurt you
Or you are going to hurt her

I love you

Dont say that

I want you

That is your hormones

I need you

Wake up

You have my heart
My soul
And whatever else it takes
For us to stay together this time

Too late
Go **** yourself
Dont look in the mirror
I dont wish to see the rebreaking
To the cracks
I dont want to see the missing pieces
That somehow disappeared
You are such a *******
I hope you know that
You are on your own this time

Its remarkable to see
What you have become
To finally see you smiling
I never thought I would see this happening
I guess I really was bad for you
You found love
Even after I almost killed you
Congratulations my dear
I wish you luck
In all of your future endeavors