much true heart songs sung sprang right
by my ears many messages
I should have grabbed for but
I spin I spin on this merry, merry
go around dizzy,
busy, so as the bees have to
pollinate every flower my
missive it seems , as a male
human is to be promiscuous
I give a minute here
to enunciate my weaknesses
take my wings off
and be humbly
human.

When you have nothing to write about,
But you want to write anyway,
Guess you can even write about having nothing to write about,
Like I'm doing right now.
So ideas creep in when you begin to write something even when you had nothing in mind,
Be patient with your head,its not a machine,
Its not always that ideas have to be well lined up,
Let the mind wander sometimes,
Its good.its alright

Provide,
Never wish to divide
The family,
They always want to see us live happily,
These are great people,
Who deserve so much respect,
In the bible,
Its only the commandment concerning them which contains a promise,so inspect
Yourself,are you honoring them as they deserve to be honoured?
Having them is a blessing,
Love them.

I move on
With or
Without you.
Usually without a hand to hold
And usually with a grudge to
Be drilled in my head.
It's just not how it used to be,
I once hugged you once a day
I hear from you
Never.
Too bad.
I don't care.
I move on with a guitar in the right hand and
A satchel bag on my shoulder.
Walking a lonely road,
Won't be lonely anymore after
Moving on
From being with
You.

the rush came back.
it was the best ive felt in 3 years.
better than anything you could give me.

a promise was broken.
many promises were broken.
im broken.

but the rush was better than what i felt
the night we hooked up.
so much better.

youre scared.
you know what im capable of.
and that scares you.

you dont understand the rush.
the feeling of being human
after youve felt nothing for so long.

im sure the shadows watched.
they always do.

you wont find out.
im not going to tell you.
and things have changed, so you
wont see.
it all worked out in my best interest.

i will talk to you tomorrow
like nothing happened last night.
and you will be oblivious.
im **** good at wearing a mask,
and you just found that out.

you wont be able to tell what im
hiding behind that mask.
you havent encountered it enough.

youre more scared of losing me
than im scared of losing myself.

she never complained
about how long my hair was
or that how it reeked of
cigarettes when she kissed me
good morning,
she never painted
my skin grey
when the sun
shined,
she never told me
that my
breakfasts of
turkey sandwiches
and pepsi weren't healthy,
she told me once that
I should quit smoking
because she did,
I never did,
she says I drink to much,
she told me that
she loved me
when I made her laugh,
her legs were always warm
and I told her she could start a fire
when she doesn't shave,
she laughed,
she told me that
she loved me when
my friend died,
she never told me
why she loved me,
she never gave
me a reason to leave,
I never told myself why
she loved me, I never knew,
so I gave myself a reason

so through tears
she then told me
to go **** myself