Paige

May 2014

calion

your body is map and here is where I got lost.

fingers- i landed my boat here, when i first met you. your fingers twirled together absentmindedly and they still do and i'm still get lost whenever i wander onto the dark beaches.
hands- i discovered these peninsulas when you pulled me along on your adventures after I landed on the beaches and they were so rough yet so wonderful and i honestly want to get lost here more often.
wrists- i found these a bit more on the mainland, still flanked by water and they were so narrow that i was afraid i would fall off into the water and i wonder how those thick colorful bracelets stay on.
cheeks- one day i wanted to go on a hike so i decided to climb up these steep mountains and whenever something beautiful sailed by you these beautiful red begonias popped up and i'm a little upset that i didn't make them pop up but i'm glad they didn't bloom around me because i got to see the natural red hills and i got to love them.

but i made a mistake because i never went south and maybe i would have gotten lost somewhere else more beautiful but if i went south, i wouldn't have found the beautiful pools that some call your eyes and that would've been the real loss.

#love #flowers #lost #hills #map #topography

Paige May 2014

Oh

Sometimes I feel like there actually is a place for me in this world
And other days I feel like that place is six feet underground

#dead #beautiful #oh #bye #hi

Paige May 2014

Beauty

I'm not sure how to wear self confidence
but I do know how many calories are in every food I consume
And my heart may be bottomless
but my make up seems to claim my entire room
And my mirror may be shattered with disgust and desperation
but at least my closets are full of Gucci, Prada, and Dior
And maybe I can be happy with lonely isolation
Gives me more time for the materials I adore
And you might as well chain me to my shopping bag
That are filled with platinum, silver, and gold
Cause I will make up for the soul I lack
With the plastics, metals, and materials cold

#hurt #beauty #ugly #oh

Paige May 2014

I don't remember writing this, but here

No one tells you about how lonely it is up here
Supposedly, if everyone is different, doesn't that mean everyone is alone
We all just live in the same space together knowing that we all have different interests and hobbies
And if none of us have the same thumbprint then that means in order for us to understand one and other we would have to touch every single other soul; just because we are all just so different
But in order to that we would have to open up and trust
Have the same sense of serenity when we lean on each others shoulder so that when I am ready to let you in my temple you do not ruin it
Do not vandalize the temple I have studied, meditated, and even felt love in
The sacred spirit I have carried with me has done nothing wrong to you
So why would you want to damage it

#oh

Paige Jan 2014

I refuse to sleep well if you're not in my bed

He closes out the forever heat of California out of his room the same way he shuts her out
She pulls down the blinds for her basement window well so that the Chicago lights are blocked

He brushes his teeth just so he can make another *** of coffee for the sleepless night ahead
She wipes off the day's daily mask that she hides under so her flaws are perfected

He sips his coffee to an indie melody while gazing over college books just so he can forget the day after
She stirs her two cups of pure honey in a cup of tea while she studies high school level subjects

He sits there memorialized by the next tune that was shuffled to play over his iPod speakers
She sits there in a trance by the lyrics of an American post-******* band from San Diego, California

He washes his hands after and remembers how lonely one right and left hand must be
She washes her tea cup and remembers how lonely one tossed away teabag must be

He climbs into bed and looks over to the empty space where he falls asleep
She crawls into bed and looks over to the empty space where she wish he was

"I don't even know what our relationship is anymore. And honestly I don't mind. Cause if you're still by my side I'll be happy".
"Happy Paige is good".

Paige Dec 2013

Screaming At the Same Moon

The sun is pulled down the same way you pull me closer to you
The beauty or the skyline just before the sun kisses the land goodbye can not be compared to how your eyes never refuse to dull
And while our shadows leave us alone I can feel the air getting cold
But here you are with the warmth of your smile
The hot touch of your skin
And the inviting color of your mocha brown eyes
I can't seem to get over how darling the night sky looks when it's completely dark
The calm touch of a black blanket covering us with specks of light holding us dear
Both of us shouting at the moon for it to never fall back down
Knowing that this is our one and only chance
The closeness of our coffee stained breaths make clouds of love in the chilled atmosphere
The silence of us slowly kissing in cars
And the shape of your fingers tangled in mine
I can feel it like it was the next year
Although over thousands of miles away I still believe you're near
Cause I can still hear you *screaming at the same moon.

Inspired by song No ******* Dancing In the Living Room by Chiodos