You don't see the things I see
And don't believe me when I say
That you are absolute perfection 
In every single way

Your nervous habits I really love
They're just so cute to me
Such as playing with your hands
And pulling up your sleeves 

The way your lips move when you talk 
And your dimples when you blush
How every time I laughed at you
I got a smile and a "hush"

The way your voice sounds when you're tired
And all those things you say
If I had the opportunity
I'd listen to you ramble all day

I saved the very best for last
My favorite thing about you
When you smile that smile of yours
I just can't help but smile too

These are just a few things though
The perfection runs so deep
I love this boy with all my heart
And he's forever mine to keep

it isn’t about a connection.
it isn’t about the heart or the brain.
it isn’t love and it isn’t explained away by a single word or a singular idea.
but it was momentous.
it was brief but beautiful.
an experience with no amount of magic.
that you passed me by and I don’t know who you are — not really, not completely — but you made me look up just by being who you are and bringing with you this warm rush of heat, this aura that spread like a tidal wave of energy.
it washed me up on the shore of earthly awareness.
it terrified my insides.
i felt it.
then I saw you.
stranger, you are amazing.
you are truly amazing.

If only you know you are wasting that pretty face,
that scarred body,
that filled mind
and those skillful hands,
your sweet words and fake kindness

If you could only let go of the dark,
I am willing to walk you down the exit
we could be actual friends,
we could actually be true to ourselves

I tremble because I am not the breeze,
because I will never be the the auburn sunset on the surf,
because I will never be as cleansing as the rain.

I weep because I can not nurture half as much as the soil,
and because I have not solidified enough to be a stone.

My mundane body quakes with despair;
because I am too complex to be as simple as the clouds,
and I will never break as beautifully as a barreling wave.

I am terrified because I don't know if I will ever be more than Human.