You would've been able to call me a waste a space
I was just someone who was waiting for a taste
Nothing more than a little piece of a creation but more than a disgrace
But how could I hide all the pain away with a smile on my face
Used to run free out in the open
Until one day it felt like I was at an arcade and everyone took away my tokens
But if I had realized there were words I shouldn't have spoken
I never would've fell in a trap for my heart to be broken
It was all in the past so i'll leave that as history
I was lost and confused like a ****** doo mystery
I always dreamed about living my life like everyone else so blissfully
But to everyone else I was unknown because my voice was so whispery
I was stuck in a dream where I couldn't reach any pearls
It was too late to revive my soul its horrid dreamworld
I was lost going in and endless cycle like tornado swirls
But what I went through was rough nothing more than My 2D World

Lord I have so many days where I feel off balance
I look up to the sky and ask if you gave me any talent
I'm not spectacular and I don't stand out from the rest
So why is it each day I wake up to breathe another breath?
You've called on me so many times, but I lack the understanding
To realize and comprehend the power of this gift you were handing.....me
But I'm just a small vessel with a bit of a soft spoken voice
So out of these 7.5 billion people why did I have to be your choice
When it's time to speak up I feel like the early version of Moses
I stumble over my words, lose my train of thought and watch as my curtain closes
But you told me I had a purpose
I wasn't built to be the strongest, but you've blessed me with a strong will
You've given my life new meaning and sent me on a mission because I have duties to fulfill
And with these lessons you've instilled, in me
I promise to walk by faith, lose my sight and let you guide my feet
Down this narrow road where you've turned up the difficulty
Because the easy way out is the easiest way to get caught slipping by the enemy
So many people wanna drink, smoke, be promiscuous and more but I'd rather
Go to church on a Monday, Friday and Sunday because where there are 2 or 3 more will gather
So why is it so hard to step out our comfort zones
For the one and only God who brought to life some old dry bones
The God who restores our faith, helps us to put food on our plate
Blessed us in the heavenly realm, even with all the decisions we make
He called on us to be our brothers and sisters keeper
But how is it that we criticize their lives? Can we really call ourselves believers?
How can you see the splint in the eye of another and never see the tree in yours?
How are you condemning others, but walking in sin with your prayer life on pause?
We are to love one another as we love ourself, that's what Jesus taught
We are to uplift not tear down because there's only one judge in the court
I live my life with a transformed heart, body, mind and soul, with a new essence
Because I don't need no other body than the body of Christ that'll get me to heaven
Salvation isn't for the saved, but for those who need to enter God's lost and found
That's why we need to roam the streets and wage war against the devil before he leads more non-believers six feet into the ground
I'm a Soulja Boy in His army, so I crank that Gospel with the real Superman
Dragging all my brothers and sisters along the way so we can one day see the promised land
And when the devil and his cronies pull out all the stops on us to the point we feel overwhelmed
We gotta remember that our squad should trouble the throne for each other and body slam the devil in the spiritual realm
We have to fight the good fight of faith and free ourselves of this flesh
Because earthly possessions and God are 2 things that will never mesh
So I hold close to my heart this little scripture Matthew 16 & 26
Because I was so caught up in life, but I learned not to let any material things exist....
In my heart because my soul is worth more than silver or gold
And if I remain in Him I can watch all my blessings unfold
And If you think you need to have it all together, then you better believe that you're wrong
I can tell you about a few brothers in the bible that weren't always as headstrong
David was a murderer, Peter was a cusser, Thomas was a doubter
Paul was a Christian martyr, and I can go on but there's no more that I'd need to cover
And just how God works, in the most mysterious of ways
He sent His son to use so many sinners for His work even during His last days
This job isn't meant to be easy, and there'll always be trials and tribulations
But if you can get the point of this message you can hold your head up high and see the final destination
We're are all God's creations made in His likeness and image, His daughters and sons
Freed from sin because Jesus died on the cross so we wouldn't have to produce our own funds
And I'm hoping that for many of you this unlocks a new chapter in your life because in mine one has just begun
So all I'm asking of you now my dear brothers and sisters in Christ is for Each One to Reach One

I didn't think that it was a possible but angel flew my way
She finally entered my life and I'm gonna make sure she's here to stay
I've never been this happy or had my heart beat so fast
Now all I have is sunshine and my skies won't have overcast
She's the beauty in my life that I love and nothing can change how i feel
She's patching up my cracks and now she's driving behind my wheel
I can truly imagine what the next few
years will be like with her by my side
A strong courageous beautiful female with an undescribable smile who'll make one heck of a ride
She's the beauty I've dreamt about with a heart as gentle as a feather
She's the one reason that I'll never be down in the weather
I don't think its possible that my mood can ever worsen
Now that I've finally found My Special Person

It's been a while since you've seen my eccentric style before your eyes
I've been inactive for a bit but a few events made me realize
Why I'm here, to do what I love most and never lose hope on my dream
So I think I'll share my mysterious fear with such inspired minds and blow off some steam
I'm not the best with words and social awkwardness is my domain
I may look like a social butterfly but that's because people believe I'm always sane
I'm a gamer by heart and a poet nature
I rap a bit, have an inner Squidward and I'd think there's nothing greater
But to be honest that's why I think I'll never be great enough
I put on act, pretending I'm not bothered but at the end of the day I'm the only person I can't bluff
My poker face is strong, but I can see right through it
I look at my eyes only to see that they look flushed
I can't keep my hands straight knowing I'm not suited, I feel crushed
I watch my dreams slip away, I try to hold em' but it's almost not my call
So I fold my hands and drop my head in shame even though the blind is small
See my mysterious fear is that'll I'll never be good enough at anything
I try to play my best, write my best, perform my best but I keep spiraling
I peek at my best then I peak before success, just when I wanted more not less
I go all out, I brawl out, then descend because ***** Diana's giving me stress
Sometimes I don't know if I'm confident in my ability
I'm barely sure if this is where I'm meant to be
I underrate myself, that's the only reason I'm sold short
When things get too drastic I turn into Usopp, ready to abort
The mission because my intuition tells me that I'll never be great
This is my fate, I want to see what the future holds but I'll have to wait
Actions speak louder than words that's why now is the best time to work on my faith
I can't waste a single second not while my mental's in good shape
The weather is a bit cloudy and I live with this Ominous Winds, but tonight I escape
I put my trust in you my Lord, I promise this opportunity won't go to waste

One's heart can only take so much damage, but somehow endures a catastrophe
Everyone's like the letters in contractions so close together but I'm always that last letter spaced out and set apart by an apostrophe
I have so many frames with canvases turning black and blue while the red seeps threw my veins and out my body
And each frame has several cracks waiting to create a big trench that either makes me seem depressed or shoddy
But it all could've been avoided if I had stopped trying to fill the void with a another human being that seemed to understand
The way I felt and who I was but in the end that relationship just seems to be nothing more than contraband
As I eagerly await a future of hope rather than despair
The cracks continue to deepen themselves because I know nobody's there
And it pains me the most because I now realize I was destined to be alone
Since there really is no hope of finding my true home
I just sit back allowing that fragile glass to break
As depression drives me away from love turning my eyes opaque
And the thought hits me that I every time I said "These emotions that awake"
It turned out to be these emotions that were fake
I hold nothing but a vacuum-like glass vase in between my rib cage with a giant whole sitting on top
And its just moments away from losing its handles and ending up like humpty dumpty after his drop
The smile that brightens my face only darkens my blood
Holding in these insidious emotions, forming a tsunami, ready to flood
I just feel as if I should ease the pain away but there's nothing sharp enough in the drawer
Because there's nothing but darkness settling in my core
I've made one bad decision which lead to a whole life of painful judgement
Now my life needs to be fixed but there's no way to make any adjustments
I've never had a drink but I might ease the pain away with a sip of Henny
Because my heart is about to shatter into One Piece Too Many

My body's slipping off the deep end while my mind is trying to climb a ladder that's been sabotaged
All because I slipped up from the right path and now the devil's trying to attack me along with his entourage
My lens used to be crystal but now light reaches nowhere near my retina leaving my eyes opaque
And every word I utter I begin to regret because its only giving me a toothache
I look back along the lines trying to retrace my steps only to see all these mistakes
Noticing that there is so much sin stacked up that I'm running out of clean plates
But now that I know where I went wrong must back to a go perilous journey that only seems like a loop hole
Because I start to fix myself back to normal but only to realize I'm only moving further away from my goal
Its pointless trying to fix a record that's been scratched and can only keep replaying back
The same old lines that stop me from reaching the end of the track
And now I'm just trying to find the perfect mixture to cancel out the darkness lying within my mind
Because no matter how much warnings I get I always try to dodge the signs
And fall into the enemy's trap straying me away from the sacred message that I held dear
Leaving to live me with one terrifying fear
Which is the fear that I can never return to the right path and that I'll always live alone
Now I must wait and all my joy must be postponed
Because the undying sadness lying within me never seems to leave
Which is the reason why I can never com-promise myself and the life I grieve
With all these problems making my eyes weep
I know I'm On The Edge Of A Promise I Can't Keep

I long for the day when I can meet my Cinderella
She'd be my gal and I'd be her fella
I can't wait to meet her and I hope she's everything I dreamed
I hope it isn't another fail, for I cannot play anymore tricks and games
The wait from now to then seems too frustrating
Its drowning my heart with anxiety and depression and its suffocating
Why haven't I seen her can I at least get a sign
For my heart can no longer play this love game, I'll send in my resume and resign
The beauty I dream of is the beauty I shall love
She won't escape me like a home run but she'll be the biggest catch in my glove
I wait for the day we meet although it pains my damaged heart
Once we meet I'll love you from start to finish til death do us part
But sadly she is nothing but a fuzzy picture that can't be seen without the black light
She'll be my morning sunshine and I'll be her moonlit night
Each time I think of you my head draws closer to the grey clouds above
And there's nothing that can stop me from thinking about Our Unseen Love

Words I can't express, a pool of doubt and a hope that the water hasn't been tainted
One of those it's too good to be true moments that actually might be too good to be true
Thought I was walking down an unfamiliar lane getting closer to the goal lying at the end
But now I don't even know if that goal is even reachable anymore or if I'm just stuck in a loop I can't escape
It's ripping me apart by the seems and I don't think I have any elasticity left in my body to endure it any longer
It's about time I stopped pumping blood so I can flip the leaf over and stain it with a new colour
The human body isn't just some play thing, it has to be respected and their vital organs are to be kept sacred with respect
We weren't meant to play with one's strings like a guitar and keep the rouse up til they pop
But sadly that's the so called human nature we always preach about, doesn't seem like MJ's word got through to humanity
To be honest I don't know how to feel about this but the closest answers I can get are empty, taken for granted and misunderstood
Why must one **** two birds with one stone when there's a possibility two birds can **** one with no stones

I love the life nobody can change
And some people might say this sounds strange
Since there were times when it got a bit out of range
But there's nothing in the world that I would trade it for in exchange
Life's been a gift that I value the most
It's been the greatest though I don't mean to brag and boast
Cheers for my life the one I give this toast
*** it never faded away into the darkness like a ghost
If you think life is just a meaningless void then fill it up
*** when you die i'm sure you want something left in your cup
Even if they lock you away like a pound pup
Your life should be meaningful *** one day your gonna blowup
Don't let those past events come back and start to rife
You want voice to be heard so get louder like a fife
So it doesn't matter the amount of pain or strife
Sometimes you should just be thankful for your Precious Life

Someone, oh how I wish I had someone to take
But I'm too shy and fragile, too easy to break
If only there was a beauty I could ask
But every time I try my shyness gets in the way of the task
All the bad guys get dates easily but what am I left to do
Well I guess I should be used to this, really it isn't something new
I've tried already and the answer was a "sorry"
It seems impossible to ask a girl without hearing some story
All I want is for my wish to be granted
I only want to make her feel like Cinderella, enchanted
I'm not looking for a girlfriend and its not going to be about me
I just want someone to feel special like a delivery
I know my chances are low but its worth taking the shot
Even if its a no I still wanna make you the center of attention and put you on the spot
What's the harm, no damage can be done, no one's thrown a bomb
But what I'm really trying to say is will you go with me to Prom?

Ah, everything felt so magical and it was a night to remember
I carried the one I love and we saw fireworks happen between us both
Hold on let me get out of the fantasy I wish I experienced
I was unloved and too shy to ask anyone out so I went by myself
I couldn't feel an ounce of happiness while tears fell on the inside landing on the cracks tearing my heart apart
I thought it was suppose to be a magestic night but instead I was depressed
Everywhere I looked I could see people having blast
But I was lonely and somehow sat with people who had their beautiful dates next to them
No I didn't mind going by myself I just felt so lonely seeing see everyone partnered up
I faked a lot of smiles to cover up the undying sadness crawling through my heart
I pretended to enjoy the night while all I could do was cry on the inside
The only thing I realized was I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life
I used to be so excited but for what, a sad and lonely future
Why must I live a curse that can never be broken
I feel like the male version of sleeping beauty but only I'm awake and living the nightmare
I had to watch everyone make the most out of the moment while I quickly whiped the fluids draining from eyes
Yes I was alone but I had no one to cheer me up
What good was I even being there surrounded by joyful people
Why should someone have to worry about my depression on their special night
I couldn't help but fight back the tears and lie about how I felt
It just seemed like the only way to hide it all
What good did I do feeling lonely and hopeless
I just waited for the night to finally be over so I could quietly sob to myself at home
I've always wished for the void to be filled but I could never imagine it
That night made me realize that I was alone and will always be

Sometimes I can never get enough
Looking for the comfiest bed and pillows that are fluffed
Enclosing me in a dream state
Executing all things no matter how big the weight
Preparing me for the next day that I await

Always ready to see what the next day holds
Believing no matter what today you stand big and bold
Closing my eyes and waking up to tomorrow
Doing anything to take away my sorrow
Everyday creates a new memory
Friday is my best remedy
Greeting everyone with a mornings melody
Holding the future in my hands will be my legacy
Introduced to who a whole new world
Jogging around the globe treating each day like a pearl
Keeping each memory stowed away in my heart
Losing time trying to get a head start
Morning creeps up in the blink of an eye
Night speeds up and flies right by
Opening the blinds to another sunrise
Periods of time walk pass leading up to my demise
Questioning how much time is left
Relentless towards second hand theft
Seconds turn to hours on a Sunday
Thursday fiercely approaches after Monday
Unknown to all, is their future
Veiling tomorrow like a suture
Wondering will my life span shorten or become longer
X rays tell me my life will expand and get stronger
Youth is where I shall remain til my old age
Zipping, no unzipping my future its about time I wrote a new page

Look up
to the big blue sky
He's the reason
we're able to fly
He takes the people
that we love
And sends em all
up above
He created
an entire human rife
He is the reason
we all have life
He is the reason
we have comfortable rooms
He helped us to get out
of our mother's wombs
He is the reason
that we carry on strong
He is the reason
we sing our songs
He is the reason
we can see tomorrow
He makes our understanding
very thorough
He is the reason
we say thank you and not why
That is the reason
we can rely on The Big Guy

Listen the beauty lies within your eyes
It's not a perspective or an image of your body size
But it's imperfection because no one's perfect
So don't listen to society it's not worth it
Doesn't matter who you are so "shake what to momma gave ya"
You were made in the Lord's eyes, our one and only savior
"Oh you're not a beyoncé" since when did beauty become a standard?
You're more than beautiful and you deserved to be pampered
By the right person because vision is a powerful thing
I can see right into your eyes and listen to your soul sing
What you can't see another will you just gotta be open
It takes time, only someone with patience can mend a heart that's been broken
People can be disgusting so don't let em make a circus of your surface
Life has a big price to pay that you didn't purchase so stop thinking your worthless and let's find your purpose
I want you to wake up every morning look in the mirror and say a mantra
"I'm beautiful just like everybody else" even if you're fairly odd like Cosmo and Wanda
Because abnormality is better than being average like everybody else
So try not to settle for less because you can never put a price on what's top shelf
It's about time you looked past yourself and present your gift to the future
You were meant to learn from your mistakes this scene was just another uncut blooper
By now you should've blossomed into an outstanding and stunning young lady
With confidence shining brighter than the sun and guys trying to shoot their shot like KD
Now you're learning to love your gorgeous self as you grow older
This is the year of 2020 vision, didn't I tell you beauty lies within The Eye Of the Beholder

Giving back to those lest fortunate
Openly recruiting more of his subordinates
Distributing prayers to those in need
Living a lifestyle that makes him pleased
Yearning for the Lord's teachings to help others exceed

The emotions I once had turned invisible on me like a ghost
I never knew how to tell the on I loved the most
What power and energy was roaring on the inside of my heart
But she never took the key to allow something beautiful to start
I could imagine how my life would've changed if only she walked through that door
But sadly my heart was left with nothing but bruises and soars
I wish I had the courage to tell her that day
But now there's another romeo that takes her breath away
She was truly one in a million like that one flower you saw in the patch
I always thought of her as the one I found, someone compatible, the perfect match
I felt like cupid hit me with an arrow attached to a love potion
But she was like that one perfect rock that you had to let skip across the ocean
I dream of her day and night thinking about her in my future
Without her there's a hole in my heart and she could've been my medical suture
I do wish we could've spent our years growing old together
But sadly my fate is doomed to nothing more than disastrous weather
Although your feelings weren't the same you still made my days
I'll never forget you, The One That Got Away

You're the reason that all these emotions have awoken
And you're the only one that can fix this heart that was once broken
If you were a game I would have unlimited tokens
And anyone who messes with you will be shot with a haddoken
The love I feel is unexplainable and the beauty I see is unbelieveable
The dream that once drifted off became achievable
Now love doesn't have to seem unobtainable
Especially when its at my fingertips and always available
I wouldn't trade her for silver or gold
If I have to I'll shout how much I love her big and bold
Because she's my blanket whenever I'm feeling cold
And I just wanna live with her and grow old
Every second I'm away from her it feels like we're lightyears apart
Each time I feel the beat I can hear what's in her heart
We were childhood friends but now we're giving our lives a new start
Being with one another and blowing the roof off the charts
She's the only reason why my heart's no longer caged up buts its free
She's the only reason why the scales dropped off my eyes and I'm able to see
She's the one who opened me up and still holds the key
And that's why she's The Only One For Me

She is my strength, my happiness, my joy
She's the only one I'll ever love she's real not fake not a decoy
I can't imagine what the future would be like if she left so soon
My heart would be dried up like a desert and lost in a dune
Everytime I'm near her my heart starts pounding and I can feel the warmth her smile projects around the room
She's the only one I'll ever care for and I'll never let go of the scent of her sweet perfume
She's the light that defeats my darkness and the empress that sits on my throne
She's my cinderella, the one whom I can call my own
It doesn't matter what ups and downs there are I can endure every mood swing
I'm just waiting for the next few years when I can pop out the question and pull out the ring
I'm looking forward to the years ahead of us as we make new memories
Our love is like a chemical change unbreakable no one can reverse our chemistry
She's the book that keeps me wrapped up always wanting more
She is the one and only Passion I Live For

You first lay your eyes on an aspiring beauty
With so many guys you know the race begins for this cutie
Your heart speeds up at the sound of her voice
But then you wonder is this the path of your choice
Your heart continues speeding without a limit
Wasting no time not even a single minute
Your heart finally lets out that jolt and you become excited
Now that she knows shes finally been invited
But your heart slows down once it cracks
The words from its engine you know you can never get back
You're close to the finish line just so little space
But you know you can never finish the race

It's a new dawn a new day a time for couples to play
But sadly it doesn't interest me in the slightest I'd say
"I'm single as a pringle, ready to mingle and jingle"
I'm single without a twinkle of hope and this sensation doesn't make me tingle
I could never see the hype behind all these tears I have to wipe
For some reason oppression is my obsession even though she's not my type
I didn't ask to be the leader she followed while I wallowed
In my own sorrow wishing to skip tomorrow so I wouldn't have to be hollow
I unconsciously suppress my emotions to the point I'm surrounded by an ocean
So I space out like pluto and leave reality so I have no devotion
To anything of this earthly plain since every cycle's the same
Wake up, try to live, hit a rough patch and find something else to blame
For my downfalls, shortcomings and my misdeeds
My faith is like a broken harvest seed, it doesn't grow it recedes
And my dull experiences only tell me I don't have many needs
So why can't I win? Is it my sins, the darkness within,
My trauma, or internal drama that has my body like needles and pins
I'll keep my thoughts short and dig deeper next time
I'm not happy but I'll move on to make another dime

To be honest I was stuck in the past holding on to emotions I could never express
I couldn't feel happy in a world with people that only made me depressed
At such a young age I was confused and had to deal with the stress
My mind was sealed after they made my heart go under cardiac arrest
To be honest I wanted to be like everyone else who could smile
I just wanted to give my face a rest for a little while
After putting on fake emotions and trying to get with the style
Because the road I traveled just seemed like too many miles
To be honest I thought I could care less about what they said
But in the end they left me paralyzed so I became brain dead
I had so many hopes and dreams waiting to come true but instead
My mic dropped and my strings popped and the ideas left my head
To be honest I was nothing more than a hopeless case, a lost cause
I longed for the day I could stand on a stage and hear the applause
I was always unheard like a track always put on pause
But it all started from one mistake of a clause
To be honest I couldn't cope with life anymore after shedding so many tears
I couldn't walk or think straight because I had so many fears
I just wanted to die quick and easy to relieve the pain of so many years
I had so many fumes blow out my head after they left so many unscrewed bolts up in my gears
To be honest I thought life was supposed to be nothing but a breeze
Until I had to leave so many doors locked and throw away all the keys
I could remember all the pain from being bullied and teased
But nowadays I just lay down and gaze upon the trees

Ha, I laugh because the person I loved seems like nothing more than a mere artifact
You claimed to love me but what was the point in saying words you knew you would take back
I can't believe I fell for it again fell for anther trick
But lemme ask you something was it worth ******* my former friend's ****
Seriously you kissed him but I got over that and tried to work things out
Until I found out he had his itsy bitsy spider climbing up your water spout
What I don't understand is you made me feel like **** when I was the victim being played
Now I realize the search for my soulmate is just like waiting in an airport when your flight gets delayed
What's so funny is you came to your senses apologized and asked to start over
But the closest you'll be is a friend because I'm not asking you to come over so don't think this is red rover
I mean how much damage do you think a human's heart can take
What, do you believe a simple sorry makes things better once you let it shatter and break
You know, I was willing to be with you for the rest of my life even though we broke up so you could deal with your issues
But you left me alone in the dark kleening up with my best friend who always gave me tissues
The fact that you were the first person I loved makes it even harder to get it out of my mind
Because you have my heart ripped up, torn apart, feeling like the aftermath of Columbine
I was willing to die for you and I was willing to give you all I had
But right now I'm sure as hell glad
That you showed yourself and took the mask off that you never revealed
Right now I'm feeling stupid for believing you because I know wasn't the only grain of grass in your field
The fact that you asked to start over is what got under my skin
Because you ****** my boy and now it's bringing the true anger from within
I always tried to help you and I gave you my all
You could go to China and realize the list of things I was willing to do for you was longer than the Great Wall
Every time I look back the memories of me and you are cremated, turned into ashes and dust
Now I look up to God and ask myself who can I really Trust?

Success is the gateway to new opportunities
But when they try to see your downfall remember God lives in your community
He's been here and there spreading His love for many years
He washes away your sins and dries up all your tears
He sent His son to die on the cross for our sins
So we know we our blessed *** our cups overflow with His love from within
He is our true God our Jehovah Jirah
And there's no other God who's love I would rather desire
He's the reason I'm still alive even though I could've died
He kept me up through all those trials all those time I've been tried
I live for the moment when I fly up to the great skies above
I'll always remember what he did for me how he gave me that Unconditional Love

Ocean tides ebb as my moon drifts away
The sun stops shining before dawn when thunderclouds roll on like all dogs going to heaven even the stray
I'm trapped and caged like cell in hell by nightfall, I'm Goku riding the nimbus by day
I don't get paid for the hell that raised my downfall, and I'm not a superhero but I'm shooting sky high in the heavens no royal pain
I'm stuck in purgatory trying to get seven minutes in heaven
Like no weapon formed against me shall prosper then the devil steps in
My biggest fear is to see myself having dreams where I'm not peacefully restin'
But I'm destined, to keep myself from going six feet under so I plunder happiness without a question
When I close my eyes I see red seas on the left and white seas on the right
I see two planes but I don't know if I'm getting on the one that crashes or takes flight
It's like I'm awake but the bed bugs still bite while its shining bright in the daylight
I get enticed by my most recent worldly desires, but I'm trying to extinguish the fire before it ignites
You ever built a wooden building with no foundation but it managed to compete with concrete?
You ever been so down to earth you flew higher than you own creed?
It's like when I live backwards I only see evil, and when I look at how I lived back then I see the devil
So I rebel and rebuke for a revelation so I can stem up from the ground like I'm budding to see a petal
This battle turned me into Malcolm now that I'm stuck in the middle of defeat and victory
I see the Godly aspects physically and spiritually while the devil's mental attacks are nothing short of trickery
So where was I meant to be? Feeling the scorching heat or under his wing working in the industry
But I'm not feeling this chemistry, so is this the end of me? Am I another zombie following a false Deuteronomy
My mind became so apocalyptic just thinking about a picture so vivid
And my insidious beliefs might cause me to croak when I ribbit
One moment I'm ascending to heaven but a dark aura creeps up and sends me descending
I always heard the wide path was trending but why is this treacherous nightmare so never ending
With a body as skinny as mine you'd think I drove on a narrow path
But when you're not steering even your wheel won't align when you feel the wrath

I walk each day wondering what am I supposed to do
My life is but a mystery with no clues
I walk each day with no dreams to pursue
Yet my will is stronger than the bond of glue
I wonder what will happen will I meet someone new
Yet I stand alone, say to myself that's never true
You can open me like a bottle and pour out the wine you brew
Because no matter what i'll always do me and never you

There are four queens

You are Lord, you are the Spirit
When you speak, I make sure to hear it
Your divine hand guides my path
Your word protects me from the enemy's wrath
You are the father I lift up in heaven
And when you command I try not to question
So why is it we have so many misconceptions
About you
He who created from dust man and woman alone
He who breathed the breath of life into our bodies because seeds needed to be sown
Is anyone feeling where I'm coming from?
So many people think God works a 9-5 for their own personal company
And forget we're called to do his work in this Christian industry
He isn't a God that just grants our wishes like a genie confined to a lamp
He's a God that tells us faith without works is dead and lifts us high up like champs
That's why we're branded and marked with a seal the promised Holy Spirit
Fighting with our sword and our godly armour, standing tall and proud to wear it
God loves us all regardless of every mistake we make
He doesn't shun us because we've sinned, but calls on us to repent for our own sake
Do you have any misconceptions of God, the God that brings us out the dark and into the light?
Or do you choose, in this life to Walk By Faith And Not By Sight

My heart is in confusion and as torn up as it is its feeling love
The only thing I can see is the rose petals dropping and a sky full of doves
I really want to get back in the game but I'm afraid I'll drop out again
I'd rather love and be in the skies than touch the ground and let my feet descend
My heart is nothing more than broken glass waiting to be restored
But now I see it, someone who's worth drawing my sword
I want to her to plug into my lifeless outlet to bring back the electricity
Because then I'll know the depths of her authenticity
There was a mistake in the past but there's still hope for a new beginning
If it were a baseball match I'd want this homerun to last more than nine innings
I don't think I can express my words until I tell her who's inside
But now that their here these are the feelings I just can't hide
I'll just have to tell her up front and hope she feels the same too
Because I need to take action and stop asking myself What Do I Do

What do you see,
a child sitting in the dark
with no one to talk to.
Left alone in a place we call life.
Dressed in old rags,
judged on the outside
but happy as can be.
A child
who can no longer
keep the engine running
with just 2 months left.
Look further beyond the outside,
what do you find.
A child crying for help,
waiting for the hero of acceptance.
A child ready to leave
if help doesn't arrive.
But what if there is no help,
what do you see
a child who has brought tears
of sorrow to the eyes of many.

You've taken away my spirit and crushed my soul
Now my body's turning back to dust while all the lies start to unfold
You've taken away my sanity and turned me to the dark
What was the point in making an effort if there was never any spark
You've taken away my happiness leaving grey clouds above my head
There's no love inside me just a lost person waiting to be dead
You've taken away my joy and burned a hole through my faith
No wonder why there's no key and an empty broken safe
You've taken away my heart and without it I feel bereft
With everything gone I only ask What Is Left

Life, a continuous path that we walk on
As it goes faster more people are gone
We search endlessly for a meaning
It comes with pain sorrow and feeling
You ask what is life
It can't be solved by a knife
To live around confusion
Knocked down by all the intrusions
Life is a special case
Feels like running back to home base
It's more than a simple task
Yet you still ask
What is Life?

I was that kid that could die in an instant
Before I wore the life vest and my heart was no longer love resistant
I was slowly drifting away while the clock was ticking
I was just lost in the time in a rolex dream because my mind was sickened
I was the kid that should've died rather than stay alive
After all my hopes and dreams were erased like a hard drive
I was the kid sitting hopeless in a black and white world
They told me "It was you" "You're my friend" lies I've heard from 2 girls
But today I am a confident young Bahamian man
I let my will burn and my desire grow as much as I can
I am the one who will help to change the world for the better
I don't follow know one but God *** i'm gonna be a trendsetter
I used to do nothing like Fetty Wap's left eye
But that was when I thought it was time to say goodbye
I am that strong individual working through God like Peter
I am the one who would do anything for those I love I would run my tank over the meter
My life was the epitome of depression and disappointment and I didn't know why
But when the times get tough you just have to ask God Who Am I?

Got a lot on my mind to write about, but all I could think about is my perfect person
I don't know if it's just me but I visualize her physical structure on a daily
Thinking about her charismatic personality, and the rest of her loveable persona's
She'd be a handful, but a handful all for one man
You know that one ride at the carnival you just don't want to find your way off
I guess its a little a too unhealthy how often I try to picture her
Even though I find myself smiling for a person I've never met especially since I don't know if she exist
But hey, sometimes you just gotta dream big, "Go BIG or go HOME"
Can't hurt now could it?
Well that's just what I thought but it brings too much emotions
Just the thought of her melts the ice around my chest
Until reality reminds me of all my failed attempts, ***** to be unwanted doesn't it
(Inserts fake laugh)
Guess Its just me, sorry if my thoughts became a bit anticlimactic
But that's just life, a sad one at that
We can't change the present only gift a gateway to the future
So though I fail a litte too often doesn't mean I should give up
And I don't wanna get left when she could be right there waiting at the alter
Plans to take me to that future are on the way
I got the blueprints I'm going to follow up until that day