One's heart can only take so much damage, but somehow endures a catastrophe
Everyone's like the letters in contractions so close together but I'm always that last letter spaced out and set apart by an apostrophe
I have so many frames with canvases turning black and blue while the red seeps threw my veins and out my body
And each frame has several cracks waiting to create a big trench that either makes me seem depressed or shoddy
But it all could've been avoided if I had stopped trying to fill the void with a another human being that seemed to understand
The way I felt and who I was but in the end that relationship just seems to be nothing more than contraband
As I eagerly await a future of hope rather than despair
The cracks continue to deepen themselves because I know nobody's there
And it pains me the most because I now realize I was destined to be alone
Since there really is no hope of finding my true home
I just sit back allowing that fragile glass to break
As depression drives me away from love turning my eyes opaque
And the thought hits me that I every time I said "These emotions that awake"
It turned out to be these emotions that were fake
I hold nothing but a vacuum-like glass vase in between my rib cage with a giant whole sitting on top
And its just moments away from losing its handles and ending up like humpty dumpty after his drop
The smile that brightens my face only darkens my blood
Holding in these insidious emotions, forming a tsunami, ready to flood
I just feel as if I should ease the pain away but there's nothing sharp enough in the drawer
Because there's nothing but darkness settling in my core
I've made one bad decision which lead to a whole life of painful judgement
Now my life needs to be fixed but there's no way to make any adjustments
I've never had a drink but I might ease the pain away with a sip of Henny
Because my heart is about to shatter into One Piece Too Many