To be honest I was stuck in the past holding on to emotions I could never express
I couldn't feel happy in a world with people that only made me depressed
At such a young age I was confused and had to deal with the stress
My mind was sealed after they made my heart go under cardiac arrest
To be honest I wanted to be like everyone else who could smile
I just wanted to give my face a rest for a little while
After putting on fake emotions and trying to get with the style
Because the road I traveled just seemed like too many miles
To be honest I thought I could care less about what they said
But in the end they left me paralyzed so I became brain dead
I had so many hopes and dreams waiting to come true but instead
My mic dropped and my strings popped and the ideas left my head
To be honest I was nothing more than a hopeless case, a lost cause
I longed for the day I could stand on a stage and hear the applause
I was always unheard like a track always put on pause
But it all started from one mistake of a clause
To be honest I couldn't cope with life anymore after shedding so many tears
I couldn't walk or think straight because I had so many fears
I just wanted to die quick and easy to relieve the pain of so many years
I had so many fumes blow out my head after they left so many unscrewed bolts up in my gears
To be honest I thought life was supposed to be nothing but a breeze
Until I had to leave so many doors locked and throw away all the keys
I could remember all the pain from being bullied and teased
But nowadays I just lay down and gaze upon the trees