we were strangers to each other
destined to meet somewhere
“hello”, I said when I saw you in the corner
“hello”, you gave me as an answer

we became close
you became the person that I want the most
asked Him if you were the one while staring at the cross
hey, we were there, almost

you told me you were sad and blue
I knew it, couldn’t argue
but now that everything’s new
I couldn’t even say “hello” to you

afraid to let you know
the feelings that I couldn't show
scared to know what will follow
"nevermind", I said it's not too deep but shallow

not wanting our friendship to be over
I hope it fades away please faster
going with the flow is the answer
not letting him notice is better

so I decided to hide
these feelings I kept inside
they say "confess", I abide
thoughts inside my head I can't decide

Maybe* it's not you
Maybe there's someone who's worth my time
Maybe we're too busy
Maybe I'm too busy looking at you yet you're busy looking and thinking about her
Maybe I was blinded by the qualities
Maybe I don't like you
Maybe I like you because you're the only one I see
Maybe I focused on you
Maybe I was wrong
Maybe I paid a lot of attention
Maybe if I told you what I feel
Maybe there's something between us
Or maybe there's nothing between us
Maybe I shouldn't be thinking like this
Maybe I'm just stressed about other things
Maybe I thought thinking about the possibilities would make it better
Maybe I only love the idea of you and me

I want to write.
I want to write the things that my mind can't speak
the words that I can't directly say
the feelings that I can't express

I want to sleep.
I want to sleep for the rest of my life
and wake up beside you
with a smile on my face
sleeping sometimes helps

I want to cry.
I want to cry and let my feelings out
instead of me being silent
but deep inside crashing

I want to confess.
I want to confess everything to someone
Confess that I love them and I'm thankful that they've been a part of my life
but things just holds me back to let go
because I'm such a potato
I want to confess how much I like you
that you've been my crush
but pride is eating me
I don't want to look desperate

I want to be alone.
I want to hear the sound of silence.
I want the touch of the air against my skin.
All alone in a room where my mind is wandering
Alone not lonely,
but alone contemplating.

I want to unlove you.**
But how?

This happened to me twice,
Never thought that the phrase "never repeat the same mistake"
would hit me
Hit me so hard that made me think
Why do I keep on doing this?
Even if I know where this would lead
Am I stupid or what?
I thought I loved you
but the mistake is I still am
Still in love with you