I don't aspire
to conquer
it's enough
if I can endure

Respect was something undiscovered,
Something I mustn’t have or find,
But I was clearly way too blind,
With feelings that have been covered.

The word ‘’no’’ couldn’t escape my lips,
Though I tried, and tried so hard,
But something didn’t let me, a guard,
Saying ‘’That’s not a privilege you must have!’’

I was scared, unseen, unknown,
With an undiscovered soul,
You came across my road and smiled,
And brought colour to my life.

But this feeling can’t be mine,
Even if I hold on tight,
Even if I start to write,
But please, my love, give me a sign.

A sign that you’re still out somewhere,
That death did not take you away,
That we’ll still have our wedding day,
And we still have our lives to share.

With you gone, I have no joy,
No lips to kiss, or girl to hold,
No one to hold me when I’m cold,
Or wipe my tears when there’s no joy.

My heart still yearns for yours to return,
It’s been long time since we collided,
But without you near, I have decided,
I shall not live, my heart shall burn.

I’m ready to say goodbye to you,
To all the hard times we went through,
I shall wait for you,

In heaven.

blackbirds rise
to grey october as they have
and will, gathering in

worshiping flocks
growing in number, moving
with one thought, as one
body.

they are in numbers
such that the sound of wing
and caw, blankets me
below

in the mystery that lies
beneath the beauty,
above both,
the precision.

and i stand struck with no question,
mixed fear and gratitude,
praising as them,
the same god.

I feel my bones shaking in terror
as soon as my eyes laid on you.
I've never seen such a beautiful view,
but this view slowly became scarier.

Loving you was walking on eggshells;
I never knew when the day would come
when you'd love me, or think I'm dumb.
We were always parallels.

But who am I to take control?
Who am I to tell you no?
My self-worth's never been so low —
and that's never been my goal.

Each day my heart would break;
your self-admiration grew,
and each day I'd sink into humiliation.
God, I've never seen a love more fake.

I never complained — how could I?
And I never wondered why,
and day by day my love was drained.

But, baby, I forever won't complain,
for my goal was always to protect your heart;
for my love was beyond respect.
So your worshipper I shall always remain.

That's my curse

Struggling to breathe,
like a fish out of water.
This is the end.

Living like there is always tomorrow
Oblivious
Its too heavy a crown to carry
Death
Easier to ignore the downfall
Inevitable

But I cant let you go
Not you
My anchor
My solace
My hopes
My soul
Silly right?
The little girl in me never grew up
Dad you are my peace
My role model
My whole heart
My balance

Somehow it seems trivial
Having to go through life without you
Even though I have kids of my own
I cant let you go

I will shatter once you go
I will never be whole again
It will pass?
I will pass through life oblivious, anxious, hollow

I dont think Ive ever told you
How much you mean to me
Just knowing you exist in this rotten world
Turns everything into colour

I cant let you go

Ive walked through life
Ive had people come and go
Many have weaved their stories with mine
Many have passed uneventful
Most have been retched
Of all those people,
I never came across anyone like you
A heart of gold
Pure
Strong
Balanced
Supportive
Moral
Caring
Deep