I wish I knew how to make it stop, the pain i feel in my heart,
What can I use to keep it together? My life is falling apart,
I'm scared to sleep cause when I do i have these crazy dreams,
,In them i struggle to catch my breath and no one to help me it seems,
And when I finally can wake up it's hard to get out of bed,
All my energy has been ****** dry so I go back to sleep instead,
I have gone through this, so many times it's costed me alot,
I've lost my job for not showing up and mycar that I had just bought,
I got a notice on my door saying I can't live here nomore,
How can it get worse i try to think how , what next does fate have in store,
I feel so overwhelmed I'm lying on the floor in a ball uncontrollably crying,
I hear my phone ring and when I pick up, my doctor tells me I'm dying,
I throw my phone at the wall and it breaks and then I start to break too,
Why is this happening and all very quick, god tell me what did I do,
I went to church since I was a kid and prayed everynight before bed,
I know many people who do so much bad ,why can't it be them instead,
On weekends I would take food to give to the poor on christmas give gifts for the kids
Im trying to search through my whole life but cant find what i have did
Ive been in pain for a year my body and heart ,my life now not much remains,
I have gone through so much I gave faith my mind now I'm going insane
I'm done putting my self in hands that ain't there and done trusting faith with my health
All the time that I wasted trusting my life to faith I even gave it my wealth .
I know now that if there's a chance for me to survive I have to have faith In just me ,
Cause no one will love me as much as I do I hope it's not to late we will see.
