for all of the words chewing at my throat
your name keeps rising to the surface
it ****** me off how my own body asks for you
when you never even take the time
to ask me how i am

why the hell should i take the time
to tear myself apart over you
when i have already done a good job
of tearing myself apart for being alive

never love a sick girl
never love a girl who pops pills
to get her through the day
because when you leave her
you leave her dead in the water