You left me a bruise the kind you don't realize you have until long after the incident. A purple tinged skin of a mistake from pushing too hard and too far searching for love, love that would never come. I cried and begged you for you to want me, you said you did, but I saw those messages to her, and the other girls. You lied. You never wanted me. You only wanted *** when I wouldn't give it to you you left. Left me hanging from a noose choking for life. I screamed for you to come back I would have given you my all I was too late. I realized it and so did my wrists as a blade met them blood ran down my hands as I left blood soaked fingerprints on letters you would never see.
I've shredded those letters now its been over two years since I promised I would **** myself if you didn't love me. I took the crumped notebook and rusty razor blades out to the trash and threw them away without a second thought like you threw away my heart. The bruise has faded now, the bruise you left me the purple has faded to a yellow you may not notice it at first glance but when I push on it just right the same deep-throbbing pain as when I first received it shoots through my body I bite my teeth and curse your name If it wasn't for your big brown eyes I would have never gotten myself into that mess.
Do you have any idea the pain you caused me? or were you too blinded by your own scars to see mine?
Sometimes, I believe, pain blinds us all to the point that we don't even realize when we're hurting others the way someone else hurt us.