I have periods where I do not speak to anyone / days when I cannot haul myself out of my own bed / nights when I curl up and feel like fading into the night as a ghost /I'm sorry I cannot be a better person to / and for you / because the truth of the matter is that I haven't felt / like a person at all in an incredibly long time / I enjoy the feeling of being hollow inside / like the world has carved my insides out / I do not remember what it is like not to have demons sitting on my shoulder or / voices in my head I'd rather hear than the voices of my own few friend/s