The feeling of love lost
the feeling of you gone.
I messed it up I really did.

We were happy
you were happy
I was depressed
dark, and sad.
you loved me tenderly
you were kind
you were one of a kind
my kind of man.

I thought it was too good to be true,
the last time we made love
I cried when we were through.
You were all mine and yet I was empty.
You loved me till the end of time but I lost something
So I wanted to find it,
but I didn't want you help.

I needed to figure this out alone,
but how could I tell
tell you all of this without sounding stupid,
without you taking me into love
so I lied

I told you I fell out of love.
I told you I felt nothing.
I told you to stay away from me.
You wanted one last kiss, I  gave you nothing.
You came around later that night,
you asked me            
if you should give up
I said yes
and I bit my lip
and you got in your car
and cried and left
and I sat on my street and watched you drive away
and I cried
and cried
and it was gone
our love was lost,
we were done
and I was lost.

I never quite found what I was looking for
but I know that I would have found it a lot faster
if I was with you.