i guess i just hoped i could wake up like i always do, only alive throw the bedcovers from my aching, beating body leave the curtains open because i don't feel like hiding keep my head up, keep the air flowing out of breath, but in sync and through pain or whatever comes my way feel it all, feel everything
but no i woke up like i always do, grey slowly disentangled myself from the crumpled blue sheets left the curtains closed because the pointing fingers are everywhere kept my head down, kept the air controlled through my lungs, out of time and through pain or whatever came my way i felt nothing