I stay silent Too often my own words betray me entirely I keep quiet To eliminate any possibly of my past tracking me Must calm the riot Internal conflict in turn turns reality iffy Must stay strategic My mind gets creative trying to beat me down completely Can't be complacent Not while losing my footing on this plain of reality There's no enjoyment Living with a cranium teetering on the brink of insanity Fear becomes a constant So it never occurred to me these walls shouldn't be up permanently I remain hesitant When there's no certainty I can take down these walls safely