How insecure am I It comes out in waves as I call out the names it's been ever the same as far, since I was five.
I see them looking at me, they can sense my nervous energy, I can see the anxiety building up Overflowing the cup as I grow old.
I am okay without anybody But I change immediately as I sense someone around me.
It's just me I feel everyone judging me, I want high scores but I can't act right, I know it is impossible to please everyone but at those times I just forget even to try, it's how I am.
I do know, I am getting negatives because of my inactions but I cannot calm my nerves. It is the heart hammering On the walls loudly, It is hard.
My eyes vulnerable to all eyes, Can't you see that I am afraid?
I am an open book with empty lines, with doodles at sides, this is my mind with more scribbles.
I can't grow like this, I've to get over this the world is merciless, won't give another chance this is it, miss the hit you go back home.
I am nervous, I am unsure, I am a mess, looking for cure, my best attempt of smile is like another big failure, I try to speak up, more words they flow with stammer.