If I allowed myself to feel
everything I feel
even only for a moment
I don’t believe
even metal chains
could restrain me
Each time forsaken,
each heart of mine
you’ve broken
It fills me with a rage
that I hope
you will never see
Each prolonged look
into my eyes
accompanied by
the twist of your knife
leaves me paralyzed with fear
for which I can only cry
I am left to hate this shell
you’ve broken,
living in a hell
unspoken
I scream instead
and yet
my cries are never heard
With your deaf ears
extended
you blindly see all
the bridges mended
yet you never saved
the child drowning
in the car underneath
I must find the error
within myself
while you perpetuate
my grief and wonder
when I will ever change.