I can't love you, Not yet How can I when your words are so hard to forget? They aren't malicious, or cruel they aren't filled with bad intent But her name keeps ringing in my head
You've fallen in love with me you say
You wouldn't tell me such lies Though I can't bring myself to believe Even with that heartfelt look in your eyes You warm my heart, make me smile You've shone a new light into my life You are kind to me, good to me
Though your words conjure strife
I know in your heart you still love her dearly I would have to be blind in order not to see it so clearly There is no future in me, as you hurt from the one of her And perhaps in the years to come you say
Who knows what will happen with her
I don't expect or want plans for a wedding or a family I just wish that while with me now You'd think of the us of now, not a future of her So how can I love someone who's heart can't choose? She's like a haunting ghost that's long overdue
And you know it hurts me, it tears me apart That you're still longing for her not so deep down in your heart So forgive me for being hesitant and unable to return those words But I'm only trying to protect myself from the hurt Because I care about you so dearly it drives me insane But I can't allow myself to fall in love with you Not yet
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I'm sorry that I'm trying so hard to protect myself, but I know if I allow myself to fall in love I will just be more torn apart in the future. There is no security blanket or safety for being with him forever, I know that and I don't expect that of him, I just want him to believe in us of now, but his longing for her and that future hope of getting back together is what kills me. He cares for me and loves me, but he still loves her as well, So how can I allow myself to be so vulnerable and to give my all to a boy who see's me only as tempory. I'll never match up to her, so again I'm sorry but I can't allow myself to fall in love with you. Not yet.