My momma taught me to be early at the airport She taught me how to prepare for court How to dress for an interview And to pay bills before they’re due I learned a lot from her The list goes on for sure How to throw a punch And to always pack a lunch Organize and keep your stuff clean Carry with you anything you might need My momma taught me to have passion Also when to fold and cash in Good things here and there Small bits when she was able to care Most importantly though I learned emotions not to show How to care for a grown adult And how to hide emotional assault How to duck under an object thrown I learned to grow up on my own She taught me much and taught me well How to let go of heaven and live in hell To follow all her commands To believe her words and mental scams My momma taught me to go numb God forbid I let my anger come I had to let words fly by and disappear Bite my tongue and always stay clear Of the things thrown or words yelled I couldn’t be me so my feelings I shelled Closed up and shut down, I bow My momma taught me how
I am grateful for what I’ve learned To let go of everything I yearned Nothing for me, myself, or I I crave attention now, I wonder why? I am searching to be a Queen Not to rule, I just want to be seen Look at me and what I can do See me, hear me and I’ll show you What I know and how I learned Understand me for I have yearned To be supported and guided through If only back then a way out I knew If only I had gotten out before A successful life I could adore A peaceful mind without scare I could actually feel and care Instead I am numb and closed down I am being held until I drowne Suffocated by my past Pain that continues to last Through adulthood and life It affects me now a mom and wife I am broken because of you Because of everything I learned to do I had to let words fly by and disappear Bite my tongue and always stay clear Of the things thrown or words yelled I couldn’t be me so my feelings I shelled Closed up and shut down, I bow Because my momma taught me how