Today I left fear I let control me
And negative decisions I drowned in the dust
Prettier colors will bloom from my drab dirt
Drip from dark walls with each turn and ******

Now I feebly fill my weak body with
Eternal and everlasting love and gratitude
Contain it within the deeply tucked hope
I somehow still have which lifts my sour mood

My diet will no longer consist of
Processed carbs, substances strong
I vow to start treating my body like a pristine temple
Instead of a tomb where the cold corpses belong

I wish I had more than words, I don't
Luckily the page listened through the years
To the bittersweet ending of up-and-down phases
Each of them seeing their fair share of tears

I desire my actions to talk louder
Reflect the honest intentions held in my heart
I am scrambling to keep us together
We are on the verge of falling apart