Every time I am left alone with my thoughts
I suddenly break into agonizing sobs
Pain drips from my sinking eyes
Pouring out in little wet blobs

Too empty to even grab a clean tissue
I wipe my sore nose on my sleeve
Until it is wet with tears and snot
This hurts way more than you would believe

I am lying in pieces on the floor
In a puddle of doubt and denial
Fragments of the intimacy we shared
Scattered all across the bathroom tile

Your choices echo against bare rooms
In my patient mind, mocking my
Stupidity for giving you everything I had
When you didn't even bother to try

I wish there was a way to shut my brain down
Then I could vacate this nightmare for awhile
I used to escape into the sound of your voice
Your phone number I can no longer dial

Now I run into brick walls instead of running away
Each road I choose leads back to you
Your memory will not let me move forward
I know it is what I need to do.