I was supposed to write this out like a journal entry but it ended up being more like a poem
I feel stupid for loving someone who doesn’t give a **** about me And I’ve spent four, almost five years loving him even when I couldn’t love myself And for that, I feel dumb I feel dumb for waiting on something that will never come And I feel especially dumb for those times I believed all those sweet nothings you murmured in my ear Dumb for my heart soaring at the text messages you would send m Dumb for thinking the impossible The inevitable Dumb for believing you were the one Sad because I still love you And that will never change But one day I will move on And somehow I’ll forget your name And it might hurt too much to even go back through time in my brain And think about how close we once used to be And all the things we said Because those things no longer matter When you can’t say to me anymore It’s as if those words fade And they no longer mean anything to you or me But I’m stuck here loving you Stuck here in alternating universe where you love me too