probably you're paying for all sins you did, not all at once, but all of them feeling a little all day. because you dom't know take what God gives you, you just put friendships on the garbage like trash, you deserve pay for what you did... probably you already paid you lose who you loved more, yet you still can't thank to god for what they made for you... maybe you suffer, and i cant undertand but you should be more,delicate and more lovely for people that love you. I made some mistakes, but I was always there for you and you still despise me, you're unfrateful, god will punish you believe in that, because karma is a ***** and karma has no deadline. -d.a