Your deep oceanic eyes dilate Leaning forward to get that first kiss He lingers, but you don't wait Something he'll fondly reminisce
Fingertips trailing his collar Your hands trace whats unknown Just as the world becomes much smaller He pulls you close and let's out a moan
Through his deep gazes you giggle Your flurrying lungs won't rest- You can't breathe it's simple This happiness involuntarily expressed
The smiles never seem to abate The moments together are pure bliss The sudden unfounded belief in fate- Begins from looking straight into the abyss
He makes you tremble and shiver As he laughs avalanches into you You begin to feel like a river You're swept off your feet without clue
And then you panic You start to realize You're falling quickly And he won't be there To catch you In between kisses and laughter You tease him "Show me your *******" And then your tone changes And you say The forbidden words And you can't take them back So your eyes begin to well up And form into pools, into ponds, into lakes, into oceans And you're drowning In your emotions
The sweetness once upon your teeth Disappears from his soft touch He seeks you for his own relief You're both eachothers crutch
Weeks pass and your oceanic eyes Constrict in the mirror With bloodshot moons And panic attacks You can't breathe it's simple like that
I didn't want to write about him I wanted to be able to move on within ut working through it. But I can't breathe. And I need to find my breath again.