one. my brother is in love with a girl.
two. my mom saw me reading peculiar books she asked me what was the story about. i just laughed and told her, ‘you know just the usual.’ she doesn’t know.
three. it was when i lied to my mother about school.
four. i cried myself to sleep.
five. i forgot to brush my teeth. it’s not that i’m unhygienic but when your body is too tired to live, it’s just too difficult to move.
six. i decided not to throw a birthday party when i was
6 years old. it’s not that we can’t afford it, but
i know that no one would show up except for that
boy with the weird hair and imperfect teeth.
seven. it’s my third day in bed.
eight. i tried cutting myself. i tried but i’m too tired
to move.
nine. i’m so angry. i’m so ******* angry. i’m so *******
angry.
ten. it was when the funniest kid started to cry.
he didn’t said why. he remained like that for god
knows how long. that was when i knew that sadness
lives in every single one of us.
eleven. a few of my friends cut themselves to calmness. i
just watch them get eaten by the lines they drew.
twelve. i regret saying that.
thirteen. but i said it anyway.
fourteen. i’m too in love with the idea that someone better
will come, turns out that each person is the right
person. we just live in a timeline where they never
are.
fifteen i looked through a keyhole and saw my parents’
corpse.
sixteeni need someone. not the suicide hotline. i need
someone real. i need someone. i need someone. i
need someone. i ******* need someone.
seventeen. i’m falling in love with someone whose heart beats
fast for everybody except for me.
eighteen. i'm in a birthday party. everybody's laughing because someone made a joke about god. i left.
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