they say
to tell a happy story

all one has to do
is end it early

and s-

Growing tulips for her lips
to kiss
in this I see a master plan
tulips become the man and the
man the bloom.

Cultivation
the seat of responsibility
the destination

I
have an assignation there
in the rare atmosphere of
education

tulips are my currency

learning for life
and life can be

sweet.

It's 3 pm she sees me when
she can

She calls it
her
Mistress plan

I have plans for later.

Ladies and Gentlemen..
I've moved on..
from the people who've hurt me,
from the people I cared,
from the people who I trusted
after they shunned me
when I wanted to care.
I've finally accepted that they won't be there,
when I turn around..
They won't have a care to spare.

She was a flower
In my forty year desert
The smallest glimpse of redemption
Which held my hope
And the sands that shift under my feet
Bring me to a name
My holy land
She was

May I fear not the fire
As I drink the water?
May I fear not the sun
As I wish on  stars?

She was a cloud
In her I see a face
In my broken lawless sky
I dream of eyes
And the winds that blow confusion
Bring me all the truth
My only truth
She was

May I hold not to endings
As I pray to begin?
May I die one day in peace
Her by my side?

A vacuum inside the chest,
I feel everything ****** into it,
Depression, that's what they call it,
I'm not sure this is what it is,
I'll visit a shrink,
Maybe that'll help,
Maybe there will be a label to this,
Because that's all anyone seems to look for,
I've never cared for labels,
So it's fine if shrinky can't figure one,
But something to fill up the void,
Just something,
To feed the vacuum,
Will help