Right as I think I'm over you
Right as I think I've moved on
and finally found another lover

I'm brought back to my most vulnerable place
You

Detached from reality
I crumble
I don't know how
I don't know why

But you keep coming back like the unforgiving tides of the ocean that threaten my livelyhood yet offer a whole new world at once

I'm drawn into you but pushed back
I want to start anew
But even that wouldn't be enough

I don't know how I'm supposed to heal
If I keep drowning in you
How am I supposed to act like you don't exist

What an inticing reality
One where I haven't suffered
One where I haven't felt pain

I have endured so much
And it's supposed to make me stronger

Why do I feel weaker?

I thought I was done crying about you

The more I look
The less I see

There you are
Here I am

Are we going to stop the rain for us to cancel out the noise of our past

If you step out from under here
You will drown
In my baggage

Isn't it funny how the thing we want most is the worst possible thing for us?

Addiction
Turmoil
Selfishness
Intoxication
Promiscuity

They promise us they can make it better
They can take the pain away
Give us an easier life
We don't have to worry

But they lie
Because they only want us to lose ourselves in them

They don't care about us

And to be honest
Do we really care about them?

What business does a hopeless romantic have being alone?

I want to give my all to another someone

I want to love them with everything I have

And not be able to breath when they prove that they were never worth my efforts

Be completely and utterly broken having to carry yet another painful reminded unsuccessful attempt at love

I guess that's what brings me here

Maybe that's what brings us all here?