I want people to look at me
And see someone strong

See someone funny
Beautiful
Graceful
Radiant
Happy
Loving

Instead I dont know how Im seen but I know at least they dont see someone beautiful.

Whatever we had then
Is now gone

When you smile at me its like you've shot me but with medicene instead of a bullet

Feeling completely and utterly drained

Outside lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room, yet inside hides a girl with a frown full of despair.

Outside lives a girl with eyes of joy that brings you to ease, yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of sadness.

Outside lives a girl with a beautiful laugh that's contagious, yet inside hides a girl screaming her lungs out in unwanted anger.

Outside lives a girl with the personality everyone envies, yet inside hides a girl full of insecurities and shame.

Outside lives a girl who is fearless and tough, yet inside hides a weak girl who lives in fear.

Outside lives a girl full of life, yet inside hides a girl full of pain, wanting to die.

Outside lives a girl with a perfect image, yet inside hides a girl with regrets and mistakes.

Outside lives a girl of innocence, yet inside hides a girl with tremendous guilt.

Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations, yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion.

I see the way you look past me
Through me
Over me
And around me

As though I don't exsist

But thats typical
Of course I don't exsist
The only girls that catch your attention are the ones that catch your eye

Im not pretty
I get that
But sometimes I just wish that I was

Have you ever seen yourself
Have you ever actually realised how beautiful you really are
Of course you haven't
You've only seen captures
Glances
Relfections and fragments
Of who you really are

Maybe thats why you find it so hard to believe that to me
You are gorgeous no matter what you see